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It's not ever enough

The title should be enough of a description of what I'm going to write, but I will expound on the meaning behind the title. Yesterday I took her to the airport after having ten wonderful blissful days together. It's never enough time together to satisfy both of our longings and need for each other. In just 3 short months we will say our vows and become each other's wife. Before that milestone happens, my youngest will graduate high school. She will be the last one and then it's off to bigger and brighter things for her future.  It's only been a day and I'm an emotional basket case. Every time we have to say good-bye, the part of me that I need to be with gets ripped away again. The only thing that will heal this wound that gets reopened every time we have to part is for us to be together forever.  Don't get me wrong I know we will have some struggles along the way, but every couple does. It's what strengthens and builds a strong relationship. We have been doing this now for four and a half years. We've done well and long may our relationship last. Once we are married however we won't be able to be together yet. I still have to come home and work for another half a year or more until I can make enough to have some money to take with me when I move over there next year. Life will be much different than what I've been used to in the U.S. when I move over to the U.K. and there will be adjustments that will have to be made. I won't be coming back home after two weeks once I move over there I will be there. It's a huge change for me. My family will be here in the U.S. and my kids will all be here in the U.S. and I will have to get a job and still be sending money home to help out my youngest while she's going through college and figuring out her next path in life. I'm looking forward to beginning our lives together as a couple. Waking up to each other, having disagreements and laughing about them later, being woken up by a cat sitting on my stomach or a dog trying to nudge me off the bed. I've already settled it that I will be the one to clean up the mess after meals are made because I'm shit in the kitchen but have better talents utilized elsewhere. I like where our house is and I love the location. There are scenic views all around and a famous person buried in the graveyard that's across the street. So cool to be living there. I'm looking forward to cooler summers because I've lived in the heat all my life. I prefer cooler weather. I mean don't get me wrong, I'll miss the pool and swimming but I won't miss the heat and humidity. I'd rather be a little bit chilly than sweaty and hot all the time. I have the air on right now because it's a little warm outside. I'm looking forward to going on walks with her and the dog and adjusting to being a step-mom to her daughter.  I will miss my little space that I spend most of my time in here in my bedroom, but we'll sort things out and make a space for me so that I will feel comfortable. Just to clarify I will feel comfortable anyhow because we will finally have our home and be together in one place. Hopefully everything will come together and on our date in July we'll be saying I DO. I may get a chance to see her again in October but if not it will be another 6 months after we say I Do that I will see her again. My heart is aching and longing for her tonight as I write this and watch her sleeping.

wolfbigrl88

wolfbigrl88

 

Getting Close

Well it's been a while since I've added an entry to my blogs here. Guess it's time to get caught up. Netty and I are both counting the days now until we can become each other's wife. My youngest daughter and I will make the trip out to her place this summer and we will get married then. I never thought these days would get here so quickly and it's kind of bitter sweet for me because my youngest will be graduating high school in May. Netty and I talked about that day when we got together four years ago and I can't believe how quickly the time has flown by. I won't be able to stay after we're married I will have to come back home and work again for nearly another year. The goal is that sometime shortly after the new year of 2020 I'll be able to make the move. I'm just looking forward to us being able to start our lives together. Yes I will miss my children here, but they will all be doing their own things and very independent. My two older children have found wonderful partners and I think they'll both be married in the next year or two sometime. Not quite sure what my youngest is going to do but I do know that she's planning on going to college and pursuing her love of acting and maybe make a go of it for a career for herself. I have no doubt that she will do well at whatever she strives for because she is a very motivated and driven child. She is so talented and she looks like she was born to perform when she's up on the stage. She's very comfortable up there so I will support her and her dreams wherever they may take her. As for me and netty, we will be living in the place she has now and I will get to be a step-mother once again. Hopefully we'll all be able to live together and get along but when we have our disagreements hopefully we'll be able to talk them out and work through them so we can all become more unified and on the same page. It's not easy having a blended family, but then again if it was easy then everyone would try it but not everyone is always willing to take that risk.  Guess that's about it for now but when I think of other things, I'll write another entry. Take care and hope you've enjoyed my blogs so far.   W.

wolfbigrl88

wolfbigrl88

 

My Second Visit Over There

Hello ladies, Wow I can't believe it's been a while since I've written a blog here. I didn't even blog about this past summer and the great time I had when netty was here visiting me with her daughter.  We went to the fireworks together, went to Itchatucknee springs and floated down the river, I had to work some but after the first week they were here I quit the job I was working at so I could spend the second week with them. Its okay I did get another job so it all worked out. After she left to go back home I was excited because I knew that 3 months later I would get to fly out to see her for the second time since we've been together. This time I would be with her on her birthday and also be celebrating our 4th year together. It's always a treat when I get to see her and spend time with her, but it was especially nice this time because I also got to visit my dog and the cats. I can't have pets here where I am so I just have to wait until I move over there to have my animals. When she met me at the airport this time with the dog in the car, he didn't know me and I had a hat on. He doesn't like men so I guess he must have thought I was a strange man and he growled at me and nipped at me, but once we got going down the road he was fine and when we got to the hotel he was fine. We got along just fine after we got settled into the room. Then we went into the village where she grew up and walked around places where she walked and played as a child. We also looked at the church she grew up going to. We didn't go inside because it was getting late. We went to a pub in the village and had a nice meal and drank some beer.  We stayed in a hotel just a little bit outside of the London area. We went into Cambridge on a Saturday, it was a nasty wet rainy day. It was also a bit chilly and I loved it because it was still boiling hot here in the deep south. We went shopping in Cambridge and we ate at this lovely place called Butch Annie's and it was one of the best hamburgers I have ever had. The meal was wonderful.  The next day on Sunday we went into Hyde Park London and walked the dog around and went to see Buckingham Palace. I can see why it would be so well guarded.  The Queen was home because the flag was flying. On the way to see Buckingham Palace we stopped along the way at a place called Kensington gardens? Hope I spelled that right, anyhow there are these ring necked parakeets that will fly down and land on you to eat seeds out of your hands. I wish I had known that because I would've brought some seeds with me to feed the birds. I also got to see where the Royal Mounted Regiment were housed, as well as visiting the Natural History Museum. We didn't have time to see all the sights of London but it was nice to just be there with netty. When I move over there I'm sure I will get to see more of London. As we were driving through the heart of the city I did get to take some great pictures of Westminster Abbey, big Ben, and the eye of London. I really wanted to go on that ferris wheel but we ran out of time. By the time it came for us to leave to go back to the hotel we were both very tired. We ate at a place called Toby Carvery, it reminded me of the Picadilly that we used to have back home here. The food was very good and hit the spot. Let me just say this, the food quality seems to be much better over there than it does here because it just seems like over here in the states the food industry wants people to eat out all the time and not fix healthy meals at home. There isn't as much sugar in some of the foods and drinks so I think once I'm living there that I will be able to drop off the pounds and exercise because netty and I will want to take time to enjoy each other's company and take the dog on long walks together. There are so many nice places we can go that aren't that far from where she lives.  Before we left Ashwell, that's the village, we were able to go inside the church and buy some books from the ladies who had had a book sale over the weekend in the church. We also bought some very yummy food from the bakery. Netty says she remembers getting nice pastries from there when she was growing up. After that netty took me up to a field where we could let the dog run for a bit while we looked for fossils on the ground. We found some very interesting rocks but I don't think we found any great fossils this time.  Then it was time for us to go home, where one day I will call it home too. It was a long ride but we made it home late. When we got there netty didn't have the proper key for the inside door, not the main door, but the inside door. We couldn't get in because the key was locked inside hanging up. Before she came to pick me up at the airport she was concerned about some water drainage at the back of the house outside so in her haste while checking on it she didn't think to grab the keys for the door and left them hanging. Since she was going to replace the door eventually, she decided to just muscle her way inside with the hammer. It worked and we were finally inside. Home Sweet Home away from Home. It's not easy being this far apart all the time, but now we at least have a goal in mind that by this summer sometime hopefully in July, we will get married, and then before the next summer, sometime in 2020, hopefully I'll be able to move over there and live. So many more things I could talk about what we did and where we went, but every time I'm with netty, we always try to do new things and make new memories. She showed me the three places she was thinking about for our wedding and I think we've narrowed it down and decided on one place. It will be beautiful there. Like I said I could write more about this visit, but tomorrow I'm working both jobs and I'm pretty tired right now so I'm going to wrap this up until the next time........   W.  

wolfbigrl88

wolfbigrl88

 

Never Long Enough

Well seems like we spent all that time waiting to be together and then once we were together it was gone too quickly. We never seem to have enough time, but the good news is that she'll be back this summer and then I'll get to go and see her for her birthday in October so three times in a year of seeing each other I can't complain. We have had an amazing time together and we reconnected again once we were alone in the hotel room. We didn't take things very slowly because it had been so long since we were last together. I can say this with confidence that we both have great chemistry on all levels, not just sexually. We went to an ice hockey game and had an amazing time there, then when we got back into town we went and did our usual shooting pool. It was the second time we'd been there since she arrived and she loves to rub it in when she beats me at my game. It's usually pretty close when we play and we like to drink a few beers so that adds to the entertainment factor, especially when we both start feeling tipsy. We also went and ate at her favorite place with my daughter and her boyfriend. It just happened to be taco Tuesday and Margarita night. I only had 2 Margaritas and I was done so my middle daughter ended up driving us home. I have a lot more I could say about this visit and I probably will in another blog, but for now I need to go and rest and mope around my house as it feels so empty without her here. (sad face). I took her to the airport today and we've been on skype once again back to the flat screen boo hoo while she's being held up in a layover at Atlanta then she'll fly out and I won't see her again until she's at her connection airport before she flies home. So yeah I'm sad. Thanks for reading and I will add more later when I'm rested and not mopey. Okay so  I can add more to this now that it's been a few days and she's home. It just seems like the time we are together goes by way too fast, probably because I had to spend some of it working and couldn't take much time off. The weather was crappy except for the last full day she'd have here then it decided to be nice and sunny. Hopefully when she returns in the summer with her daughter, she'll be able to return home with a nice tan. I am not in a hurry to see my youngest graduate high school because she's the one I will miss the most when I move. I'll miss all of my kids when I move, but hopefully they'll figure out a way to come and visit me and then they'll see why I wanted to move. As I've said in my previous blogs, I think that it's much harder on netty than me because she's a more touchy feely person and loves to have her hands on me all the time. We even like to go to sleep together holding hands sometimes and I can say this, I never was that intimate with my two ex-husbands and never went to sleep holding their hands. So yes, being in a loving relationship with a woman is much more intimate and definitely deeper on all levels. I have no idea what kind of a job I'll get when I get over there, but I'm sure I'll be able to find something and hopefully we'll be married before I move. It's going to be quite a change for both her and I because she's used to having things a certain way and so am I, but her daughter is younger than mine so that is why I'm choosing to move over to be with her. Both her and I are anxious and just want to get our lives together started, but I look at it this way, we've been spending time getting to know each other over the last three years and we already know how it feels to be together and do things together, so when we do actually get to be together we will have already gone through stuff and will look forward to going through new stuff together. I also know that relationships take work and good communication and you have to be willing to do both if you want to have a lasting relationship because the minute you stop talking or communicating, that's when you will begin to have problems. So once again I have a countdown on my phone for July, and she'll be here with her daughter so that we can all go and see the fireworks together. Guess that's about all for now, until my next entry and thanks for reading. Wolfie.

wolfbigrl88

wolfbigrl88

 

Eight Months Finally Over

Hello ladies, In just a few short days the love of my life, netballer1973, will be here once again to spend ten wonderful days together. I've gotta tell ya it's been a very hard eight months because each time she visits our connection grows deeper and the desire grows stronger. Without having a hope of being together soon, there's no way either one of us could've lasted this long.  This year I will once again get to go and visit her for ten days over there and that's going to be hard when it comes time for me to leave because it'll be even closer to the time I'll be able to fly there and not have to come home. When I go to see her in October, my youngest will be in her last year of high school. It's a bittersweet time for me because she's the last of my three children to graduate high school. Originally I had planned to move over to be with netty as soon as my daughter graduated high school, but I think I will probably wait until later to make the move, and hopefully netty and I will be able to get married before I move over. So back on track here, yes eight months is a long time and we will have a lot of making up for lost time to do once we check into the hotel. I have so missed kissing and embracing and holding each other. The longer we're together the deeper my love for her grows. We've been together now over 3 years and she's been here to see me more times than I can count. When she comes alone of course our time together is much different than when she comes with her daughter, but each time she brings her daughter I feel like we connect better and gel better together. A blended family is tough and I know it's hard for netty to be away from her daughter, but both her and I know that she needs to have that time free from that responsibility for a little while so she can enjoy our relationship and what we have. The obvious that goes without going into too much detail is that we are both also looking forward to being able to make mad passionate love to each other and show each other just how much we do love each other. I can also say that reading all the books her and I have been reading hasn't helped in the distance department, but we both agree that when we're reading those books, we're thinking about each other and getting ideas, lol. I guess the reason why it isn't as hard on me as it is on her is because she craves the physical touch to just be able to hold me and touch me, not that I don't, but I don't think about it as much. We both have to bury some of our feelings so that we don't get too emotional and lose it over the fact that we can't be together all the time because of our current circumstances. It will be a little bit easier this year because shortly after she comes to see me next week, she'll be back with her daughter this summer, and then I'll get to fly over to see her in the fall, so more frequent this year. I can't wait to get back over there to visit her again because I love being there and there's so much to see and to enjoy. When I went over there the first time she took me to pick strawberries and what she didn't realize was that it reminded me of a place I went with my parents when I was young. I had so much fun that day with her and I thought how great it is going to be when I live there and we can go and do those kinds of things all the time. I'll have to find a job and she has her job, but I have no doubts that we will feel so much better once we're able to be together. Don't get me wrong I know it won't always be easy and we'll probably have a few disagreements along the way because relationships take work. Period. Some relationships are harder than others, but the main thing is that you give of yourself to the other person and they give to you. I'm sure we'll both want our way when it comes to certain things, but we'll work through it like everything else. It is going to be a big life change for me as I've only lived in America all my life and only lived in Florida, which is a tropical warm state most of the year and very very hot in the summer time. Will I miss it? Yes I will, however I love the country, the mountains, the hills, and the ocean and I will be quite content to live over there because I can go just about anywhere and see those things, including cool rivers and streams. I will have to get used to the cold, but as long as netty and I can snuggle up together on the couch then what else could I possibly want? I'm also looking forward to being with the animals because I miss not having pets of my own. Hopefully I'll be able to own a horse again because I miss that connection that I shared with the horse that I had and netty's daughter will be able to have a horse to care for and learn about the responsibility of what it means to care for someone else besides yourself. I could go on and on but I think you get the gist of this blog. Woo hoo only five more sleeps and she'll be in my arms once again and her lips will be on my lips and her body will be in our bed at our place which is where I live at the moment until I can move to the place she lives and then I'll be in our bed there. Hope you enjoyed this blog, until next time,   Wolfie

wolfbigrl88

wolfbigrl88

 

She's Amazing

Well ladies what can I say, she's amazing. I have had another wonderful two weeks with netty. She brought her daughter with her again to visit me and my family. It was more than amazing, it was awesome. You'd think that with her daughter being here we wouldn't have quality time to attend to our physical cravings for each other, but both of us were so pleased that we had more than enough quality time than we thought we'd even get to have. Every time we are able to be alone, it just keeps getting better and better. When you are so in love and have such a great chemistry on all levels, it makes the sex so much more meaningful. For us it is a very passionate time and very intense time of making love. She satisfies me like no one ever has, and I had a very good sex life with both of my ex husbands. Lesbian sex has no comparison at all. We could've kept going our last night together, but we had to be up early so I could get her to the airport on time. This time I had to drive over two hours to get her there. The things she does to me there are really no words to describe only the feeling of being taken to another planet where time and space disappears and only pure pleasure is experienced. We had many wonderful encounters and I just love giving her pleasure as well. There's nothing more satisfying than being able to bring her to multiple orgasms that are intense and ongoing, and there's nothing more satisfying than also being brought to that same place by her. As I'm writing this the weather has been bad and she was not able to take off so when it looked like she'd finally be able to take off, the plane was brought back off the runway because they had to fix something that had mechanically gone wrong, which in and of itself is a scary thought. She's still sitting on the plane as I write this and I'm back home waiting to hear from her. They may get her to her connection flight but she won't be flying out on that one tonight. Her daughter is hungry and very upset because there's no proper food on the plane. I sure hope they can at least fly out tonight and get to her connection flight airport so they can get something decent to eat. I wish I were there on that plane with her right now to hold her and to comfort her daughter. I feel like this trip we gelled more as a family and I got to know her daughter better. We had quite a few new adventures and hope to be able to do some of the same things next summer. I also hope that my daughter and I can fly out to see her next summer as well. If I can somehow manage to raise the funds to book a flight over for her birthday in October, I'll get to see her, but if not it will be another long and painful 8 months of waiting. Parting is getting harder and harder because we both just want to get our lives started together. When she's here we get a taste of what that feels like and that's what makes it so hard on both of us. I have not yet shed my tears yet, but I'm sure they will come when I least expect them to. Coming home to my house after her being here for two weeks is always hard because I've gotten used to her being here and now she's not here and I will be sleeping in my bed alone tonight thinking of the night before when we had such a passionate time of making love. She's left a few things here so when I see them it reminds me of her and that she was here with me. I wish she could've stayed longer but it's hard on her daughter because she misses her daddy and her animals. I can't wait for that day when I will fly out to go and live with her in less than two years time. My daughter is a Junior in high school this year and when she graduates high school next year, I will be making my journey over there to be with her and start our home together. We hope that we can get married next summer when I go over there to visit her, then we can finally call each other wife. It's harder on her than on me because she craves my touch and to touch me and we both love making out with each other and I miss that. Long distance relationships are not easy, but when you have that special person, it's worth it in the long run if you know you're going to eventually be together forever. I'm thankful for skype but skype sex just isn't the same. I'd much rather have her hands on me than my own and I know she feels the same way. It's harder for her to do it than me but because she loves me, she settles for what we can get because she knows that it pleases me. I don't like it but we do what we have to do to stay connected and at least we're able to do that. Neither one of us like having to satisfy our own selves through skype sessions but we don't really have any other options until I can be with her. I love her so much and I'm very sad as I write this because I miss her so damn much. My kids do too and my middle daughter was hugging her last night asking her not to go, knowing that she has to go because she has a job and her daughter and her animals. I'm moving to be with her because her daughter is too young to move over here so it will be easier for me to go over there. I can't wait until the next time I get to hold her in my arms and snuggle with her in bed and just be in her company. Until next time........   W.

wolfbigrl88

wolfbigrl88

 

Wanting but not able to have yet

Time for some of my recent thoughts so here goes nothing, lol. I find that it's getting harder and harder for me to be here and netty to be there. I have to be strong however and be patient. It won't always be like this and in a little over 700 days, I'll get to be with her and not have to ever part again. It just feels like some days drag on and on and I just want to be home so I can at least see her and spend time with her. Just when I think I'm going to have enough money to get a ticket to fly over and see her for her birthday something comes up that I have to spend money on or my bills all come at once. I really would love to be able to see her for her birthday in October and maybe I will, who knows, time will tell. I will miss my kids when I move, but they will all be grown up and no longer dependent on me for their support. My youngest has been gone for two weeks spending time with her cousins and her grandma. I have missed her, but at the same time it hasn't been difficult for me not having her here. My middle daughter lives with me, and that's been a challenge at times but she's finally got another good job and is making progress, so we'll see what happens. My son lives with a room mate and has a good job, but every once in a while he pops around to say hello. The store I was working for closed down so in order to stay employed by the company I had to transfer to a different store and now I'm going to be driving at least 35 minutes one way to work. It's on the beach so that's a perk, but it will make for a very long drive home after working an 8 hour shift. Hopefully they'll build us a new store within the year so I won't have to commute for too terribly long. I still have my other job as well. I'm so looking forward to seeing netty again next month and she'll have her daughter with her and I'm looking forward to spending time getting to know her better as well. This will be the second summer she's come with netty to visit me. I hope she has a good time and enjoys being here and seeing netty and I together and how we work together as a couple. I'm coping well with things, but I can't imagine how much harder it must be for netty not having me there with her to help her with her daughter and to just be with her, she misses her dishwasher, aka me, lol. We obviously miss the intimate times and being able to hold each other and kiss each other, we love to kiss, lol among other things that goes without saying. We meld together well and have a very deep connection on every level, and that's rare to find, but thanks to this web site, we found each other, and for that I am truly thankful. Well because I'm now a daytime working girl by the time 10pm rolls around I'm exhausted and ready for bed. However when I have about 5 days off I'll probably slip back into my night owl tendencies, lol. Guess that's about it for this rambling, please leave you comments I enjoy getting feedback.   W.

wolfbigrl88

wolfbigrl88

 

Parting Is Not Sweet Sorrow, Parting Sucks

Hello again ladies,   Well today was not a happy day for either netty or myself. This is the part about being in a long distance relationship that sucks, taking her back to the airport.   We had an awesome time together but it was way too short and went by way too fast. If she wasn't going to be coming back with her daughter in July, it would've been even more difficult. Every time I come back home after taking her to the airport there's always a heaviness and a sadness because she was here with me in my home, which is now her second home. My sheets still smell of her, a parting gift to remind me of our times of intimacy with each other.   The sex was and is amazing with her every time because it's so right and we are so connected.   We finally were able to watch Below Her Mouth and that was a great movie with lots of sex .   Don't get me wrong I do understand that when you live with someone day in and day out that it's a whole different dynamic all together, but I think that we will not have a problem when that day arrives around 929 days from now or sooner. My youngest graduates high school June 2019 and will most likely live here in the condo and attend a local college then go off to a major college two years from then. I have a countdown clock so that I can look at the days.   When I visited netty last summer I got to see where she lives and how beautiful it is over there. I have no doubt that we will have our disagreements on things, but for the most part I am going to enjoy living there with her because she's the love of my life. I don't expect my family to understand but maybe one day they'll get it. My life is just that; my life and no one is going to convince me otherwise. My children will all be adults and living their own lives as I have raised them to be. I know that my youngest will be successful at whatever she chooses to pursue.   My mother barely visits me now and I only live a little over an hour away and I mostly communicate with my dad via email because we can't speak civilly to each other on the phone and he usually only gets up here when something breaks or he decides he just wants to come visit me. My sister hardly ever calls me and she's on her religious high horse claiming that she still loves me but that it's "wrong" to live like I'm living according to the bible. I used to be religious myself but religion never saved or helped anyone. I still have my faith and consider myself to be very spiritual but I can never go back to living the way that my mom and my sister live. My dad understands me and he gets it and he's very supportive of my relationship with netty. I think he really likes her alot and he's even told her he loves her. I know my mom and my sister love me too but they just don't understand and I don't expect them too. My mom says that I'm leaving everyone behind to run off and go live in Scotland and I'm leaving her behind. I'm not leaving my family behind, I'm just moving to another country but will still come back to visit here. I've been in Florida my whole life and yes it's great living here but when I visited netty in Scotland I knew that Scotland was my home and I can't wait to get there. My youngest will miss me the most because it's mostly been just her and I for the last 4 years since my divorce from my second ex husband. My middle daughter has been engaged a few times and hasn't been around much but after she broke up with her last fiance she's been living with me too and has had a much better attitude and been a lot more helpful with financial things. She's planning on going into the Navy and that will be a huge step for her and good for her future. She might even be able to come and visit netty and I once she's stationed and can take leave or go on vacation because she'll be paid well as long as she scores well on her test and gets put in a good occupation.   The future looks very bright for netty and I. The plan is for us to get married as soon as she's divorced, hopefully in a castle over there in Scotland but if we can't do it that way then we'll get married here because our marriage will be recognized here as well as in Scotland. I know it won't be easy living there and I will have to find a job so that I can help contribute to our family, but I'm sure I'll be able to find something that I can do. I don't know what it will be like living there but I know that it is very different than living here in the U.S. What I like about where she lives is that there's rivers, the sea, and there's hills and further north there's mountains, so I will be able to finally learn how to snowboard, woo hoo! And I'll get to experience surfing in very coooolllldddd water but that will be a blast because I saw what nice waves look like on the coast. There's also lots of golf courses over there and if I can get my elbows to where they don't hurt so much, we'll be golfing. I like to camp so we'll be going camping. We'll also be able to travel to some of the places that I've wanted to see. Personally I think my mom is slightly envious of the fact that I'm going to be living in the home country of our ancestors. My great great grandmother is from Edinburgh and I have her wedding ring that my mother gave me. Maybe my mom will make it over to visit me and maybe my sister too. My sister visited Ireland a few years ago. See with them it's all about money and because I have none they think I should just stay here and work and live where I live the rest of my life but that's not going to happen, I'm leaving this country and starting a new chapter in my life with netty because I want to grow old with her not here in this small town where people like to talk. I know people talk in small villages too but I can handle that. It's not the same for her there as it is here and I do get it, but it will be a very small price to pay in comparison to what it will be like to just be with her. I also can't wait to just be there and be with the animals because I can't have any here. Netty and I got a puppy together when I visited her this past summer and he's gotten so big, I see him when I'm on skype with her. I miss not being able to have pets because my dad is highly allergic to cats, so the cat that I raised from a kitten couldn't come here to live with me. Someone adopted her from the fruit stand she stayed at and they took her home so I don't even know where she is now. My first ex husband has the bird with him and his mother, and I had to take the two dogs I had to the shelter when I moved in here.   My life wouldn't be the same without netty and when she left today she took my heart back over to Scotland with her and she left hers here with me. When I move over there our hearts will be united and will finally be able to be one and we will finally be able to be a couple and do things together as a couple. I long for that day and so does netty.   While she was here this time we all went bowling, my three kids, one of my daughter's friends, and netty. It was so much fun and all of my kids love her. My youngest came in to say good-bye before she left for school this morning and gave her a big hug. My middle daughter gave her a big hug when we were leaving and said to her don't go. Because my middle daughter was able to be here, netty gave her strength to make better decisions and I'm so thankful for that and that my middle daughter sees netty as her second mom. It's so great when the kids can be so accepting and encouraging. My youngest is involved in the arts at her high school. She's in dance, drama, and chorus and has a lot of gay friends. She's even become a member of the equality club and went to the pride event up in Jacksonville. She's such a great kid. Kids today are more understanding of same sex relationships than they were years ago. It's become even commonplace for there to be gay teachers. Her chorus instructor has been with his partner for years and is a well respected teacher. Her drama teacher has done some risque plays like The Normal Heart. Oh my gosh that one was a real tear jerker and the guys even kissed in the performance.   Anyhow thanks for reading this and yes parting is not sweet sorrow, parting sucks but one day we will not ever have to part again.   W.

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She's Here After 8 Long Months:

Hello Ladies,   Well the day finally came yesterday for her to be here for the next 10 days. She was so tired and her legs were very sore from the long ride here.   I got caught in traffic and if I had left the house 30 minutes earlier I would've been waiting to greet her when she got off of the plane. I made it up here in time to check into the hotel then rush over to the terminal to pick her up. I was hurrying to get to the gate when she was already walking towards me. She was hurting and broke down and cried when she saw me and then we embraced and I held her for a long time. Come to find our her bag didn't make it on the flight over from Amsterdam to JFK in New York so we went to baggage claim and she filed a missing luggage report. They managed to locate her bag but she wouldn't be getting it until we were already home here. The arranged to have it sent to my place. It is supposed to get here sometime this evening late.   We had an amazing night in the hotel and the beds were so very nice. There were some bad storms so we could hear the rain outside our room and we sat outside on our little porch and watched the rain and lightening, it was so cool. Guess the storms were pretty bad here this morning because my daughter sent me a text message and said it was raining pretty bad but she got on the school bus and made it to school okay. We were up near the airport while she was at home.   As our usual pattern we trashed the one bed and then proceeded to trash the other one in the early morning hours and it was so worth it. What an amazing first night we had together. Then this morning we went and bought her a few things she needed to get her by until her bag arrives here later on tonight. We ate at Cracker Barrel and had a wonderful breakfast.   We stopped and picked up a few things at the grocery store before coming home here. We took a brief nap then went and picked up my daughter at school after her track practice. She was exhausted so she came home and passed out leaving netty and I alone to have some quality time.   I won't go into too much detail about that, but OMG I have never cum like that in my entire life, she is so amazing and I love doing the same to her. I love the way she tastes and kissing her is so wonderful. We have such an awesome connection and chemistry. I can't wait to be her wife and I'll keep ya'll updated as the week rolls on. At the moment she's asleep on the bed as I'm writing this blog. I guess I'm going to be the one to wait up for her luggage to arrive, after all it's 4:30am where she's from and we wore each other out. I'd be sleeping too but someone's gotta get the door when her bag gets here that contains the stuff she needs to get some work done because she'll be going back to work when she gets home. I will be working two days this week while she's here then hopefully have the rest of this week and part of next week off.   Okay for now that's about it but more to come as our wonderful week progresses.   W.

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Counting Down The Days:

I'm counting down the days until she will be here with me again. According to my countdown clock she will be here in 65 days. Thinking about her being here and seeing her after not seeing her for eight months is what gets me through my work days.   I hate having to work every weekend and working nights at that gives me little opportunity to spend time with her on skype because when I work all weekend I work all night, sleep all day get up a few hours go back to sleep and then work all night and then do the same the next day. This weekend however, I will have Sunday off so we'll get to spend a little more time together. She's been here to see me three times on her own and once with her daughter last summer. I have been over there once to see her and at times still can't believe I flew across the ocean and that my first flying experience was international because I flew into Canada then over to see her, it was so awesome. I look forward to that day I fly over there and won't be flying back home but staying with her. Hopefully we'll be married by then.   I don't think we'll be able to make it out of the airport to our hotel room before we make a stop to have some much needed contact with each other because eight months is a very long time to not be able to touch each other or hug or kiss. I would've never thought 13 years ago that I'd be in a serious relationship with a woman because back then I was married to my first ex-husband and 13 years ago after I rolled our Suburban I should've known that our marriage was coming to an end by the way that he responded when I called him from someone's cell phone that had stopped after witnessing the accident. He was angry at me and said if I'd come home earlier that wouldn't have happened and he didn't act very sad that he could've lost me, he didn't even cry. I believe he had already been cheating on me then and one year after the accident, he left me. I didn't discover shys until about three years or so after my divorce. I'm so glad I found this site because eventually it lead me to netty, the love of my life and I'm so thankful that we found each other.   I can't even imagine what my life would be like without her in it because we are so connected, and as my other blogs have talked about my first experience, it was so mind blowing and incredible. It was perfect and every time that we get together, it's perfect. It's like she never left or I never left and I'm hoping that I'll be able to go over again and visit her before I move over there and bring my daughter with me the next time. I missed my daughter when I was over there visiting netty, but I didn't miss anything else about home here. I'm so ready to be with her and start our lives together.   I don't know what I'll do for work over there, but I'm sure I'll find something that I can do because I can do a lot of different things. I know that I'll need to get a job fairly quickly once I'm settled because I'm going to have to still support my daughter somewhat when she's here going to college. She'll live here in our condo, and I'm sure by then she'll have a good job of her own. She won't have to make a whole lot of money because the bills here aren't that expensive. I'll do what I can to help her out so she can have some money of her own to spend as she likes, and she likes to spend money. She loves to shop for things online and she likes to get new clothes. I hardly ever buy clothes for myself and the last time I got clothes for myself, netty bought them for me when we went shopping there in Scotland. Yes I do have all of my children here, but my two older ones are grown and every once in a while I hear from them and usually hear from them both at the same time, it's so funny because my son and middle daughter seem to have that brother sister connection, and though they don't talk to each other much, they both seem to get that urge to call me or come by and visit me at the same time. Sometimes I'll get text messages from them both at the same time. I will miss my children when I move, but I have no doubt that my youngest, the one that lives with me, will be the one to skype me often. She does facetime with her friends and they live here in town. She was the one that came running to meet me at the airport when I came home from Scotland, and I cried. My mom wouldn't even park the car she just waited outside. Yes I love my parents, but I won't miss them because I barely see them now as it is. I'm sure the reality of it will sink in once I'm not here but over there.   Life over there is a lot different than it is here in America. People there seem to be nice, but some don't seem to be happy, probably because for most of the year it's pretty cold there, not like here where I live where we only get a few days out of the year where it's bitterly cold. Most of the time here we can run around in shorts, tank tops, and flip flops and go for walks on the beach and put our toes in the sand because it's very warm. Here in America, we seem to be gluttons for food, especially junk food. Netty likes to cook nice meals, so that will be a change for me. I don't really fix meals for my daughter and I, but my daughter likes to make things to eat. I'm not a big eater but I like to snack on things throughout the day, mostly junk like sweets and chips, or crisps as you call them over there, lol. It will also be a change living with another person because I've been used to just my daughter and myself here. It's a good thing that I don't mind living in small places because my condo is small and netty's place is small. I don't need a huge home to live in because I spend most of my time here in my bedroom on my computer on skype with netty. Ever so often I will venture out into the living room to watch a movie on my bigger t.v. or play some video games, but I'm not a big gamer so it's rare that I do that even. I like to write, obviously and will probably be doing a lot more of that when I'm over there with her. I am going to try to make a go of it and see if I can get some of my stories published and sold. I'm working on a story right now but haven't been able to get back to it lately. I even wrote a story and put it on here, it's called The Lady and her Wolf but it's been a long time since I've added to it.   Eventually I'll figure out the number of days until I move over there, then I'll put that down here as a countdown blog. Sometimes the distance between us is so hard to deal with, and at times both her and I ache in our hearts because we love each other so much and just want to start our lives together, but for now we have to settle for those short moments in time where we get to experience paradise when we're in each other's arms. April can't come fast enough and if she'd had more time to spend here, we would've went to the Blues festival and Dali museum again, but we'll come up with other new experiences and things to do when she's here this time. Maybe go for a kayak ride or climb the lighthouse, who knows, but one thing's for sure, we will be enjoying every moment that we have to spend together.   Until next time,   W.

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Update On The Condo Disaster:

Hello again to those of you who actually like to read these blogs ,   Well I went to work today at my second job and that went pretty well but he's still not giving me the hours I need. Right now it doesn't look good for either of my jobs. My main job has cut me back 8 hours more, so what's the point of working 2 jobs? I might as well be just working at one and busting my ass but that wasn't paying the bills and even though I made myself more available for my second job he still only gave me two days working next week. Uggghh on top of that I've got this condo mess to deal with.   I made some progress in my condo tonight and got some trash thrown away and put some things back into my room so the living room doesn't look like a major disaster area but it still looks like a bomb went off in there. Some of my daughter's furniture was damaged so she can't put it back into her room and she lost a few books as well. I threw out one of those books and she said: "Mom why did you do that without asking me? I might have wanted to take a picture of the note in the front of the book." My mom likes to write these long notes in the front of books she gives us, but the book was ruined so I thought I'd just throw it out, no biggie, now my daughter made me feel bad. I told her the more damp stuff we kept the more mold could grow, but she still made me feel bad and she's right she could've taken a picture of the note, or I could've copied it for that matter on my printer/copier oh well live and learn.   I pulled some more stuff out of my front closet only to find that it's also still wet on the floor so I put one of the blowers in there and hopefully it'll be dry by tomorrow when they come to do their final check on the water dampness levels. Oh back to the money thing I forgot, my dad will probably expect me to pay him more rent now, so I might just need to look for work at another place but we'll see what happens.   I'll just be glad when the insurance guy comes Monday to access the damage and see firsthand what happened. At least I can sleep with the air on tonight and be nice and cool. I'm going to get a very nice night's sleep after being hot the last two nights.   I really hate disorganization and this is so hard seeing my condo a mess. On the upside at least I got my kitchen cleaned up and it looks somewhat normal again. I also got rid of some things out of my closet that I didn't need to keep hanging on to. I have two items that I won't ever need here unless I have to use them for home defense. I have a nice axe for chopping wood, and a very sharp pitch fork, I lived in the country before I had to move to this condo so I used the pitchfork when we would have fires in the back yard. I miss country living .   Oh well such is life. Guess I should wrap this up and head to bead because I am very tired and am not on my normal night owl schedule for a change. Hope ya'll enjoyed reading this. Take Care.   W.

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Up All Night

Hello ladies,   I was just sitting here on shys thinking and reading some of the posts here. I should be in bed sleeping in light of the recent disaster in my house/condo I live in, but these damn fans are noisy and the dehumidifiers are making it very warm. As some of you may have experienced this, it's damn near impossible for me to sleep when I'm hot so here I sit on my computer late at night wide awake.   More on the disaster in my condo, it's funny but not funny how it happened. Let me preface what I'm going to say by this; my daughter is so great and she's a bright kid and hardly does anything to cause me reason for grief. She's also caught the stove on fire when I wasn't home as well and joked about putting it out with water and baking soda, which evidently worked because we're still here, lol.   Her latest adventure and creating mishaps while I'm at work, however doesn't have an easy solution to where it's barely noticeable. This time she decided she was going to wash her memory foam pillow and sheets and her other pillow, thinking it would be okay to start a wash and go to bed like we've normally done before. Well as some of you may know, a memory foam pillow is made of a very super absorbent material, so it soaked up the water like a sponge, making it damn near impossible for the drum in the washing machine to turn once it was initially soaked. So yep you guessed it, when the washer went to the rinse cycle, it never stopped trying to fill up the tank and flowed, like a river for four hours, unbeknownst to me while I was oblivious just working away trying desperately to finish my work early so I could get home and go to sleep, for two hours, so I could go and work on my second job driving all day delivering parts. So I get a phone call at 7am from the condo asking me where I am and am I aware that water is pouring out of my condo? I freaked out because I didn't know what was going on and when I unlocked the door I was totally freaking out because there sat the washing machine just running and running. Now my question is why didn't the damn condo just shut off the water in the first place the moment they discovered this? Dumb asses and now I'm responsible because it was my unit that caused the damage.   So I was exhausted, needless to say, and just wanted to get some sleep, but noooooo the condo manager has to be her usual bitchy self and threaten me with having a board member come down to my condo to talk to me if I didn't do something about it right then, so I had to involve my dad. I'm sure he wasn't too happy about that either. So I called the guys who do this sort of thing all the time and were very busy after Hurricane Matthew hit us here causing similar damage. They got started drying the carpets, then proceeded to rip them out. My house looks like a bomb blew up in it because we had to move a lot of stuff out to the living room. My daughter got the worst of the water damage because a lot of books, and her yearbooks took on some water, as well as her cubicle organizer and her charger for her Apple Mac book laptop, which she can't charge now because the charger sustained water damage, so she's going to have to use my computer for her online class.   So her I sit in the midst of fans blowing all throughout my house, and dehumidifiers sucking the moisture right out of the air. My fiance sleeps soundly in her bed over there in Scotland because I have kindly muted the volume so she doesn't have to hear all this noise. They say it could be three or four days of this but I hope not because I can't go off and leave my place unlocked with all these fans blowing while I'm not here. Fortunately, I don't go in to work until 10pm tonight and my daughter will be here, then I'm off on Wednesday and hope the walls are dry enough by the time I have to go to work on Thursday on my other job.   You know shit happens to all of us every damn day and just when you think things are going along smoothly, life likes to throw you a curve ball instead of a fast ball. Well sometimes that curve ball will either get hit or we'll strike out, but the only thing that matters is how we handle it. Someone once said that when life hands you lemons, make lemonade, well I don't particularly care for lemonade, but other people might like it, so make it for them and enjoy seeing how they respond. You have one of two choices when these kinds of things happen; you can bitch and moan and complain about it and get angry, or you can just chalk it up to another one of life's interesting experiences, and who knows maybe if I'd had had a normal night and came home and went to work on my second job, something worse could've happened because that job involves driving all day so who knows, but at least we only lost some carpeting. Hopefully my daughter's books can be salvaged, but all is well here in the Wolf household and the cub has learned yet another valuable but costly lesson: don't ever leave a washing machine, or dryer for that matter, unattended, and that means don't go to sleep with it running, lol.   I hope this blog brightens someone's day so for now until next time,   Wolf

wolfbigrl88

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Making A Long Distance Relationship Work

Hello ladies,   Well from the looks of the numbers on my blog I see that a lot of you have read my blog but not commented a lot on the entries. It's okay, not everyone is a writer and I understand, but lots of people love to read a good story.   Okay so some may be wondering, how in the world do you make it work when you're both over four thousand miles away? What keeps you two going until the next time you get to see one another?   Well let me see hmmmm..... the main thing is communication, constant communication. I've mucked up a few times on this one and it wasn't pleasant for either of us. Most of the time we are very good at keeping in contact with each other, but there were a few times that I did not. Sometimes I forget when I get caught up in doing something fun to at least tell her hello and I'm thinking about her while I'm out and about. One of those times I was with my daughter down in Daytona at Bike week. Originally I was just going to go down there to get some boots for myself and ended up buying boots, jeans, and a nice belt, which I changed into at the store. I then went to eat with my daughter at Taco Bell, and not realizing my daughter was talking to a good friend of hers at the time, who was also coming down to bike week for the evening. I didn't think about it at the time and just went with it, without letting netty know where we were going after we left Taco Bell. I honestly didn't think anything about it other than just going to check it out. Well because I had changed my clothes and then went to a place loaded with literally thousands of people bar hopping, you can see how that would be concern for netty. I texted her at Taco Bell but then didn't text her for the next four hours. Then the next text I sent her was a picture I drew on one of the bar walls signing our names and saying bike week 2016. She was not impressed and was very pissed because she knew I was there but I didn't tell her what I was doing. In all honesty I really didn't think about it at all, but in hindsight I should've been sending her loads of pictures and texting her, but then she wouldn't have been very happy because she would've felt left out. She was so mad at me that she actually hung up on me on skype when I was on my way back to my truck to go home. It was after 2am my time, which was 7am hers. It was a huge mistake on my part and I hurt her because of my lack of communication and being somewhere she knew there were lots of bars and lots of people.   You'd think I would've learned my lesson from that, but shortly after that I had another mess up. I went to my hair dressers to get my hair cut. Well she's a very good friend of mine that I've known for years. I stayed there about three hours and didn't text netty until I was getting ready to leave. She was very upset because I could've at least told her I was going to be a while and that I loved her and missed her and would see her soon. See the thing is we live together basically on skype and when we're not on skype, we're either at work or she's doing something with her daughter. So when we're not on skype we try to send each other texts on whatsapp. She's knows that I get very busy at work and can't always send her a message, but I do slip into the bathroom a couple of times during my shift and send her messages. The time difference is also a major factor because she's five hours ahead of me.   We do what we can together when we're on skype. We play poker together online, or I read to her, or she'll sit and watch her t.v. shows while I'm sitting here on my computer at my desk, or working on the massive puzzle she thought I'd like to work on, a three thousand piece puzzle with lots of blues and purples, lol.   Because we can't physically be together we do what we can when we're on skype, and that also includes the sexual part of our relationship. It's not easy to not be able to touch one another, but when we are together on skype, we think about those times that we have been together sexually and it's how we are able to get off. Masturbation sucks when we've been together and experienced "proper" sex as some would call it, but when you're over four thousand miles apart, it's all you have. She is more of a touchy feely person so it's more difficult for her that she can't actually touch me. I'm more of a mentally stimulated person, so it's not as difficult for me to fantasize that it's her hands touching me and getting me off when we do things together on skype. We mutually masturbate together because though it's not the same as being physically together, it still provides us with that connection and satisfaction hearing each other get off. We love to hear each other and she loves to watch me and my body responds when I hear her getting close. Most of the time we can time it to cum together but sometimes when I hear her, it then sets me off. My body starts gushing and shortly after that I can usually climax close to when she does.   Yes it's not the ideal situation, but we do what we have to until we can be together again. This time it will be seven months before she comes to see me, but the good news is, we'll be that much closer to our goal of one day being together. My daughter will graduate high school in 2019, and by then hopefully netty and I will be married and I'll have everything in place so I can just get on a plane and go to live with her in Scotland, until her daughter turns 18, eight years from now, then we can live wherever we want and travel to wherever we want.   The thing that makes a long distance relationship work is to have that goal that eventually you will be together living in the same place under the same roof. I loved my visit with her over there and can't wait for that day that I can move over there. She was afraid for some weird unknown reason, that I wouldn't like it there. I have as of yet to experience those very cold gray winter days over there, but I'll manage. I love wearing my flannels and long sleeve shirts and right now I'm going through the change of life that women in their later 40's up into their 50's go through, so I'm hot most of the time and can't seem to get cool, so a cooler place will be nice for me.   Will I miss living here in the U.S. in Florida where it's hot and sunny most of the time? Yes and no. I was born in Florida and have lived here all of my life, but with my daughter's graduation, it will be time for me to make a change. I wanted to move out of the state before she started high school but that wouldn't have been fair to her because she has all of her friends here and she's got some very good friends. She's a great girl and has a very good head on her shoulders, and is totally supportive of me and my relationship with netty. When I move over to Scotland, she will take over our condo and her friends will move in and be her room mates. She will probably go to college close by and she'll be working and earning her own money. Will I miss her, yes most definitely because it's basically been just her and I for the last four years. I'm closer to her than my other two kids, but my son adores me and loves me dearly as well. My middle daughter and I butt heads and are not really on speaking terms at the moment. She's an adult and I've tried to just let her be who she is and be there for her when she does need me. She's engaged again for the third time, and I hope this one is the one that will work out for her. She's working at a good place and finally has gotten her driver's license and a new car. I'm very proud of her for everything she's done and wish her the best.   Will I miss my mom and dad? Yes and no. I'm closer to my dad than my mom, but like I said we don't communicate that much and they don't spend that much time with me so four thousand miles or ninety miles makes no difference, they've just chosen to not spend a lot of time with me and more time with my sister, so they'll be the ones missing out and missing me, but I won't miss them as much because I'll be too busy starting my new life with netty and building our home together and making lots of new memories that will erase all the hurtful ones and bad ones from my past.   Will everything be perfect all the time? Most definitely not, that would be unrealistic. However, it will be as close to perfect as we can make it. Netty and I are very compatible on every level and we both see each other as equals, however netty might say different on that one, lol. She's very competitive so it makes for an interesting dynamic between the two of us when we're together.   Overall what makes our long distance relationship work is that we're committed to each other and madly in love with each other and sometimes both of our hearts ache because we love each other so much but can't be physcially together living in the same space and going out and doing the things that couples who are together can do, like walking together and holding hands, or going out on dates and kissing, oh and of course the mind-blowing sex .   I hope that this encourages those of you who may be in the same boat or who may just be starting out. The main thing like I said in the beginning of this blog is to stay in communication and find things that you can do together, via skype or face time, so you're able to enjoy each other until you can be together again.   Take care,   W.

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Life Back At Home

Hello ladies,   Well it's time for me to write another blog about how life is now that I'm back home. It's always an adjustment to come back home and live without her being with me. One thing I know for damn sure is that my heart is in Scotland with her. I'm just plugging away here in Florida with my day to day activities and work and taking care of my daughter, who is now a Sophomore in high school.   Both netty and I hate the distance and it's harder I think for her than for me because she so craves my touch. Don't get me wrong, at times it is very hard for me too. Living four thousand plus miles away is hard. I am aware of the distance now that I've flown over there to see her. My flying experience was good but it wasn't easy because it seemed like we weren't even moving up in the air, until I got up to go use the bathroom, then I could actually tell we were moving. Those planes amaze me that they can go that high up and fly like they do because, true to it's description, it is an air bus. I was glad to get on the ground and get settled.   We are back to living together on skype and I'm so thankful for technology in that sense because at least we can see each other and talk to each other. Having kids at times makes it difficult because both her and I need to make sure we're taking time out for our girls. Her daughter is younger than mine so she requires a bit more attention and supervision. Hopefully, netty will be divorced soon so we can get married. She will be coming to see me again in April, and that's eight more months away. It was fun getting to know her daughter over this summer, both when they came here to visit me and then when I went over there to visit them.   We also got a puppy and now I'm having to watch him get bigger on skype (sad face). I wish I were there to help with him. He will be a year old the next time I get to see him hopefully this next summer, and hopefully I'll get to bring my daughter with me so she can experience the beauty and wonder of the land of my ancestors. Come to find out my dad's side of the family has is roots in Scotland as well. I was so glad to have the opportunity to go over there and see how beautiful it really is.   Netty and I fit together so well, that's why it's so hard being so far away from each other. Some people look a whole lifetime to find what we've found together and I'm so thankful for this web site because if it weren't for this site, we would've never met.   Like I said I hope that I'll be able to get over there with my daughter next summer to visit over there. It's not easy to do with the job that I have because as it is I can barely make my bills, but I'll be able to at least book our tickets when I get my tax return next year. I don't expect my family will understand, but as I like to say, it is what it is. If they have a problem with it oh well, this is my life and I'm living for me, not for their approval. I hope to be able to get a second job so that I can save some more money and have more to get me through the year.   So guess that's about it for now, it's back to life here at home, going to work, taking care of my daughter, and spending time with netty. I love her more and more every day, and I believe what they say is true about lesbian/bisexual love, it is very deep and very intense because you're connecting in every way. Don't get me wrong I'm sure that those who have husbands and have good relationships with them connect, but speaking from experience, this is way different than the two marriages I've had and very nice to love this deeply again. Some people only get to experience that once in their life. I've had the privilege of experiencing it twice now. My second marriage was not as nice and had a lot of problems and I'm glad that it didn't last. I loved him too but not like I loved my first ex and definitely not like I love netty. She has my heart and soul and half of my heart beats in half of her heart, so together we both make each other whole. It's hard to explain it but that's how I feel. Telling her that I love her never gets old.   Hope you enjoyed reading my thoughts,   W.

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My Visit With Her In Scotland

Hello Ladies:   I had my first flying experience and my first trip out of the country. It was amazing. I'm not a fan of landing in the plane but I loved taking off. The flights weren't bad but the flight over there was long. I had a hard time getting comfortable and didn't get much sleep. When I arrived there it was around 6:30am on a Monday morning. I was so tired but didn't feel tired once she greeted me at the gate. Her daughter was with her because she wanted to see me, which is a good thing. I was amazed at the beauty of the country when we drove to her house. It was weird driving on the left side of the road, because here in the U.S. we drive on the right side of the road. Everything was opposite. I couldn't wait to see her place and be where I had only seen on skype. We stopped at a McDonald's on the way home and picked up breakfast, it was very yummy. We didn't have much time to get settled because we had to go and pick up our new puppy. We grabbed a quick nap then went to get the puppy. He was so cute and fluffy. We then had to go to a doctor's appointment for netty. Her daughter and I waited outside with the puppy while she went in. Her daughter and I met this nice lady that had a Springerdor dog. He was so sweet and wanted to play with the puppy. He was just a young dog himself, I think she said he was about two years old. She was nice and her dog was very well behaved. When we picked up the puppy we had a crate for him to be in but he got really sick so I held him when we went home, he was much better riding with me in my lap.   We also had to take him to the vet to get his first shots. I was amazed at the beauty around me and the sea was close to where we took him to the vet. We then went home. We were very tired that night so we didn't have any "quality" time, which was a first also because we usually have that the first night we're together, but we made up for it in the morning . Before we went home we went and picked up Chinese and took him for a walk with her daughter on the beach. I was happy to be walking on the beach and glad to see there are quite a few beaches around.   The next day we went to Edinburgh and went to see a movie. Her daughter was supposed to go with her dad at his work but he had already left so we took her with us and went to see the new Star Trek movie and ate a five guys. The hamburger was delicious and the movie was great. We also had an ice cream. We came home after the movie and chilled for the night. We dropped off her daughter at her dad's then we had the evening alone. The next day her daughter came around in the morning and brought some of her friends to see the puppy. Netty and I were "busy" when she showed up so when she left we had to continue where we left off.   These things are going to happen because she has a daughter and I totally understand and I get it. If I were living there it would be easier because her daughter could get to know me better. Things will get better as time goes on.   Netty was a great host and tour guide, she took me to some amazing places and beautiful country. I saw a weasel, rabbits, sheep, cows, horses, a brief glimpse of a deer's horns, oh and some really big pigs, lol. She took me to see a couple of castles, one we went inside of and there's a beautiful beach down below. I might have to actually try surfing in the cold water once I get moved over there in a few years.   So many beautiful memories and now that I've been to her place, I can't wait to go back and visit her again. The next time I get to visit her at home the puppy will be a year old and not a puppy anymore. He's so cute and netty is training him very well.   We did have amazing sex as well. We got to christen her bed, . I love sleeping with her, she only woke me up a couple of times when I was snoring, lol. I was also amazed that the cats didn't bother my allergies. I love her cats too. They usually were in the bed with us and both loved the attention I was giving them.   We went to her local pub a couple of times and I played quiz night with her and her friend. We didn't do too bad, we came in 4th and netty won a bottle of scotch whiskey in the raffle draw. We didn't drink it but it'll be there the next time I come and visit her. I'm not a big drinker but I did have a few beers while I was there and discovered some dark beer that I really liked. I also noticed that things taste different over there. Some things aren't as sweet and the quality of the water is nice. My hair felt so soft and my clothes smelled so fresh after being washed and hung out to dry. The steak that I had as well as the shrimp were nice. I usually don't like my shrimp grilled, but they were good along with the steak. They were very garlicy, but that's okay. Netty and I weren't really impressed with the quality, but we had a nice last meal together.   Our last full day together she took me to this nice place where we went for a nice hike up into the hills overlooking the bay. We saw a lot of sheep, and as we were making our way back to the car it started to rain so we had to head for some trees for shelter. We now have a special tree that we stood under and made out while it rained. It was so romantic, we got slightly soaked. The rain passed and we headed back to the car. We did that before we went and ate at the restaurant. We had our last night alone together. We had an amazing time making love, it was very emotional for us both because it was our last night together. She helped me pack my suitcase, which was so full it was about to pop. She had taken me shopping and bought me some more clothes, so I came home with more than I left with, but she managed to get it all in.   Then it was time for me to come home. We were both very emotional but I didn't cry as much because I process things a little differently. I guess I always try to be strong because I know that it's not the end, just another chapter in our story. However, when the plane took off I bawled and so did she when she saw my plane leaving. So we were both crying at the exact same time. I felt like I was leaving part of me behind and I didn't want to come home. Now that I've been there the circle is complete, she's been here and now I've been there. My heart is in Scotland. She is the other half of me so I don't feel whole when we're not together and I know she feels the same way.   Coming home is never easy but right now it has to be this way because I have to work to pay my bills and she has to work to pay her bills. I don't know what kind of a job I'll have when I do move over there but I'm sure I'll find something. I may have to work at the potato factory peeling potatoes. Who knows, I don't have to figure that all out now. The next big thing we'll be doing is getting married once she's divorced. Hopefully we won't have to wait too long for that, but who knows.   Overall I had an amazing time with my bride to be and can't wait until the next time we get to be together.       W.

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Her Third Visit With Me

Hello ladies,   Well here's a blog about netty and I's third visit together. We had an awesome time together. We spent the first three days out of town. It was so wonderful to be in her arms again. She ran to me when she saw me this time at the airport and we held each other for a very long time and then we passionately kissed right there in the airport and didn't care who saw us.   Of course we didn't make it to the car before we had to make a stop in the restroom so we could get reacquainted with each other and you know what I mean.   After we left the airport we went to grab a bite to eat because we were both hungry, then we went back to the hotel for a long awaited time of making love. It had been eight months since I last saw her and she was anxious and worried that it wouldn't be the same, but all of those fears were calmed once we were in the bed together. It was so awesome as it always is when I'm with her. Our passion grows the longer we're together. Needless to say we didn't get much sleep but I managed to get a little rest.   The next morning we had some more intimate time together, then we had to leave and went to go grab some breakfast. Oh I forgot we also took a trip to the walmart after we ate dinner to pick up some snacks and beer. I still have some in the refrigerator. After breakfast it was time for a long road trip over to the west coast of Florida. We stopped off at a Western store on the way there and netty bought some cowboy boots. They look great. Then we got back on the road and arrived in Tampa late in the evening. We settled into the hotel room for a little bit, then went searching for a nice place to eat dinner. We found this fantastic steak house and the food was to die for. We also enjoyed some local beer that was brewed in the Tampa/ St. Petersburg area. The steak was out of this world and the salad was so good. The bread was very fresh.   By the time we got back to the hotel room it was very late and we were both tired. The next day was the Tampa Bay blues festival. It was a perfect day, sunny and gorgeous. The beer was good and the bands were great. We met some people and made some new friends. We didn't stay until the very end because it had been a very long day so we went back to the hotel and well you can guess then we passed out. The next day we checked out and went to go visit the Salvador Dali museum. It was a wonderful cultural experience for me and I enjoyed the artwork very much. We first visited the artwork of young students from the area and the artwork was so impressive. One piece caught both of our attentions, it was a girl sitting on an open book reading a book. It was a great visual of how immersed we can get when we are reading a story. The one piece that we both liked that Theodore Dali painted was a picture of a nude woman from the back looking out a window and when you stepped back from the picture you could see Abraham Lincoln, it was really cool. I just loved being there with netty and enjoying watching her and talking to her about our own impressions of what we thought he may have been thinking when he painted certain things. I noticed how intricate the strokes of the paintbrush must have been and how detailed they were. It inspired me to want to take up art again. I also didn't know how involved with Walt Disney he was but now certain things about Disney animation makes more sense now. Dali played a part in creating thing for Walt's ideas. We didn't get to to the virtual tour but maybe we'll get to do it again sometime.   We spent some time shopping in the gift shop and picked up a few things. Netty is so sweet. I showed her this pen that I wanted and she said she'd think about it. I picked out a few books to color in and a notepad with this really cool paper called stone paper. As we were getting ready to leave I needed to use the restroom so she said go ahead and I'm going to look around some more see if I might want something else. Well, you guessed it, while I was in the restroom she bought the pen for me. She's such a softy.   We then left and headed for my mom's for one of her yummy southern dishes. I didn't much like it when I was a kid but I loved it. It was a shrimp creole and we had cornbread with it. It took us longer than we planned to get there because there was a bad accident on the interstate. Once we were on the road I took a road that bypasses the interstate and all the traffic. It was a very scenic route and smooth driving, no back ups. So for the first three days together I spend about a total of around nine hours drive time combined from Jacksonville to Tampa to Orlando then home. Every trip with her is different and we did different things this time.   I had to work two nights while she was here then I had the last two days off with her. We went and ate at a local Mexican restaurant and then went and played pool. We drank a few beers then we went and spent the night on the beach and woke up to watch the sunrise together. The weather turned kind of yucky that morning because it was our last day together and the weather stayed that way until I took her to the airport and went home. It was gray and rainy, I said God was sad because she had to leave and go home. This time it was even harder to say good-bye at the airport. I sat and watched her go through security and was able to grab her hand one last time through a space in the columns. Then as I walked away I cried. It was so hard to walk away. It was even harder when I came home to an empty house because she had been here with me. My house felt empty and my bed felt empty. I had to work that night so I had to come home and sleep.   My boss had been out from a surgery so she asked if I could come in and change the trash out and help out for a little bit because the other girl working has a very bad knee and she's in a lot of pain. So I worked a couple of hours, came back home again to an empty house, went back to sleep, then woke up and went into work. When I came into work the girl working asked me why I looked so sad and I told her because my fiance went home.   The nice thing is that she will be back to see me this summer and she's bringing her daughter, hopefully, to come and meet me. Then I will get to have another first of several experiences with her. I'll be flying out of the country, never flown before, and never been out of the country. I'll get to go to her house and meet her friends and see her town. I'm looking forward to that so much, and I won't want to leave.   I'll be so glad when we can finally be together all the time in just a few short years, when my youngest graduates high school. Hopefully, we'll be married by then.   I love her more and more every day and being apart grows harder every time we're able to see each other and be together. It's a huge adjustment to go back to being on skype, but at least we have skype so we can see each other. Our work schedules make it hard as well but we do what we have to do to take care of our families. I have a daughter to support as does she. I will be so happy when I can fly over there one way and not come back.   I have my family's support and that's all that matters. All three of my kids love her and are happy for me that I'm happy.   As I'm watching her sleep I can't help but feel such a deep love for her and miss her being here sleeping with me.

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Crazy In Love

Okay ladies I have a confession to make: I'm crazy in love with netballer1973. Well most of you already know that if you spend anytime here on shys or have caught up with us in the chat room. Lately we haven't been online much together because of the time zone difference and my work schedule. Usually when I'm off during the week she has to get up and go to work herself and there's a five hour time difference. She has also moved into a new place and she doesn't have her internet set up yet so it's driving both of us crazy.   There are many reasons why I know that I'm crazy in love with her but one of the tell tale signs was yesterday morning when I had gotten off of work and had come home to go to sleep. Usually around 11am my time or 12pm my time I wake up to look for her messages on my cell phone because we are usually in constant communication with each other. She had texted me to tell me she was having a bad day at a little after 7am my time in the morning. The day before she told me she was going to have parent's night so she wouldn't be home until late on Tuesday. Well I happened to get a lot of rest and woke up around 1:30pm and thought she should've been in touch with me by now or sent me a message or something and I had forgotten about the parent's night. She had been gone for over 12 hours and I had only seen her briefly at work before she went in to work. I skype her at work sometimes so I can see her before she goes in to work. So back to the story, when I hadn't heard from her or seen any messages hardly at all on my phone I started to get very upset. Then I chastised myself and said you goofball why are you getting so upset, you'll talk to her soon. I was going nuts because I'm so used to having certain times with her and when those don't happen it wreaks havoc on my mind.   I am so crazy in love with this woman that she is my world. I can't stand the thought of not being able to hardly see her because her internet is down. We live together on skype and when she's at work I'm usually sleeping, but when she gets home I am awake and spend as much of my waking hours as I can with her until I have to go back to bed to rest before I have to work. Like right now, it's only 9:35am here and I'm awake because I did sleep most of the night, which I shouldn't do because I work nights, but I was off my schedule last night because my daughter wanted to go grocery shopping so she could fix us tacos for dinner. Yes my youngest lives with me and she's 14, my middle daughter is a ghost these days because she's got a new boyfriend that she's spending all of her free time with when she's not working. My son doesn't live with me but he pops in every now and then to say hello. Sometimes he stops by work to see me too.   Anyhow with the 5 hours time difference it sometimes makes things difficult. Both yesterday and today I realize just how crazy in love with her I am. I am so looking forward to seeing her next month. The longer we are together, the harder it becomes when she has to leave to go back home. She has a 9 year old daughter that needs her attention and motherly guidance and care. I hope I can come over and visit her this summer, we'll see what happens. I've never flown on an airplane and I've never been out of the country. All of my family has except for me. My sister went to Ireland, my mom's been to Jamaica and Canada and soon she'll be traveling to Paris, my dad lived in Dakar, Africa for a year. My family is so judgmental, but that's another subject for another time. Why shouldn't I be able to travel to go see my fiance? Who are they to judge me? So anyways, yes I'm crazy in love and borderline obsessed with her and my feelings and love for her only grow deeper and stronger as each day passes. We've been together now for a total of one year and five months. When she comes next month we will have been together for a year and a half.   Well guess that's about it for now but I just wanted to voice my thoughts here on my blog if anyone is interested in reading and commenting on it. Is anyone else this crazy in love with someone, not just someone, but a woman? I know there are a lot of married women here on shys, but for those women who have girlfriends, are you crazy in love with them? Just curious.

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Her Third Visit

Hello ladies,   It's been a while since I've written on my blog so I thought it was time to write something. Well in less than 50 days netty will be here to visit me for a third time since we've been together. I'm so looking forward to seeing her because each time is special. We grow closer and closer to each other every day that passes. I look forward to the day I'll be able to move in with her and live with her on a daily basis.   I consider myself to be fortunate in that not every couple that gets together long distance gets to see each other as often as netty and I have been able to since we've been together. Some couples only get to spend one or two weeks a year together and then they have to wait to see each other again. I'm so glad she's been able to come and see me. It's hard with our work schedules sometimes to make time for each other and with kids, but we do manage to. It's harder on me than her I think because I have more opportunities alone, so it's not easy to resist when I'm feeling excited and am thinking about her.   April can't come fast enough.   W.

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The Proposal

Okay ladies here's the picture of the ring and the story. Netty and I had the Sunday afternoon together before I had to go to work, so I took her to the lighthouse park. There were people there playing this game with metal balls, I don't remember what the game was called but Netty knows, she said it was a French game and they were playing French music by an artist she recognized. In this park there are all kinds of cool trees and swings and tennis courts. We sat down on the swings and swung for a little bit, then I took her over to the old oak trees where there was one perfect one that I chose to sit on with her. She was very nervous acting and I wondered what was up and I really was clueless but I had wondered if she had bought a ring and had planned on giving it to me when she came this time to visit me. We had both looked at rings online so she had and idea of what I liked. I wasn't really expecting her to do it though so she reached around into her bag and pulled out the box with the ring and I was so happy, she asked me again and this time she put the ring on my finger, it was so beautiful and I couldn't stop looking at it. I had to take it to jewelers to get it resized to fit proper and now it's a perfect fit and I don't have to worry about it sliding off or losing it. She had showed it to my daughter before she gave it to me and her daughter helped her pick it out. I showed it to my mom and my dad, but they didn't comment because I think they know what the ring means. I am so happy and I can't stop smiling when I think about the future her and I are going to have. I also got Netty a ring while she was here because I wanted to give her something she could take back with her to show that she's mine and I'm hers. We shopped for her ring together and I bought it for her when she stepped outside, then I gave it to her when we went to this British Pub and had yummy food and great beer. So there you have it and I am so happy.

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Her Second Visit

What a wonderful and special time this has been for the two of us. Neither of us was quite sure how we'd greet each other at the airport but as soon as I saw her I grabbed her up, gave her a big hug, and we kissed right there. Then we went to the bathroom and then we went and picked up her luggage and headed for the hotel. We had a perfect first night together. You can use your imagination and figure out the rest from there. I will write another blog about the details, but I will say this, that if you've ever read a really nice lesbian romance story, that's the best way to describe what her and I have together. Only ours isn't fiction it's very real.

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Second Time Around:

Well ladies my wife to be will be here in less than a week for the second time in a year. It's been six months since her last visit. I'm so looking forward to meeting her at the airport this time because I won't hold back my kisses or my hugs. I don't know that we'll even make it out of the airport before we have a go at each other. The back seat of my truck can be quite comfy . I'm sure we'll definitely go and grab a bite to eat before we go to back to the hotel. I will be nervous again as this time we have already been together now for ten months. I am also going to have lots of quality time to spend with her while she's here. I can't wait for our first night together after being apart for six months.

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How Selfishness And Dishonesty Effect A Relationship

Net and I were talking about this the other day. We are so connected that the other can feel it when something questionable has been done. I'm a terrible liar so it's just about damn near impossible for me to hide anything form her. I have been so used to going off and gratifying myself, even in previous relationships that it was very easy for me because I justified it by saying that I didn't fantasize about anyone or anything. I didn't really stop to think how it would affect me mentally the first time I did it and the second time I did it. I don't understand or always get it the first couple of times and that's because it has been a pattern of mine for many years. I let some time pass before I did it again. I thought I could just bury it in the recesses of my mind but I love her so damn much that it tore away at my conscious because I felt like hell after I had gratified myself because I excluded her and I know how that makes her feel. We had a serious discussion about this after the first two times I did it and I gave her my word that I wouldn't do it again but when the time came again and I yielded to it I felt like shit The next time that her and I had our "time" together I had to work very hard to satisfy myself and it was then that she knew because the first time it happened it effected me the same way and I was not able to perform. This last time was the worst for me because I realized how serious it was and just how deeply it hurt her, not because I did it but because I lied to her about it. I was afraid to tell her the truth because I was afraid I wouldn't be able to repair the damage I had caused and I couldn't bare the thought of losing her because of my selfishness and dishonesty.   The nice thing about having a healthy relationship is the fact that you can communicate and talk about it and work through things. What makes a relationship strong is the fact that you can talk about those things that are hurtful and then take steps toward preventing the same thing from happening again. It doesn't mean that we won't hurt each other ever again but it's how you work through it that determines the outcome and brings even more solidity to the relationship.

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A Month Since Her Visit:

Well ladies it's so hard to believe that it's already been a little over a month since netballer1973, my wonderful future wife to be has been here to visit me.   I will just say this I do miss her and sometimes the distance is harder on her I think than it is on me. In that aspect she is very much girly. I do alright with her not being here because we do have skype and as long as I can see her and talk to her then I'm okay, but I do find that I freak out just a little bit when I'm here and I know that she's home, but she isn't on skype with me. We are both seriously addicted and obessessed with each other, lol.   The week she was here was amazing and we were able to have lots of good quality time, and no, it didn't just consist of only sex. I took her down to meet my dad and my mom. My dad is very accepting of her and I's relationship and doesn't have a problem with it, but my mom however, who is very religious, has a serious problem with it. At least my mom got to see that she's not some butchy dyke that typical straight "christian" people have a stereotypical image of when you say the word lesbian. We had a very nice visit and my dad took us out to eat so we all rode in the same car. My daughter was at school, so she wasn't there with us. I tell this story and laugh about it but didn't think it was funny when it happened, but my dad knows that I like to shoot pool, and net told my dad we were going to go out that night when we got back and shoot pool. My dad has a pool cue that he's very proud of so he went back to his room where he keeps it I guess, and brought it out to show net. He talked about it and how he got it and how much it's probably worth now. I know what kind of a pool cue it is so I respect it, but my dad never gets it out when I come to visit him and he damn sure doesn't let me hold it, but he handed it to her and let her look at it. She was tickled when I told her that. I still am shaking my head over that one. Yeah I think it's pretty safe to say that my dad really likes her. I wish my mom would get over her religious self-righteous self but that's not going to happen.   So my dad lives about an hour and a half south of where I live so it was a bit of a drive to go and visit him. I showed net the town I grew up in and drove her from one end to the other and showed her where I used to ride my bike. When we were on our way back home and were about twenty minutes from the house I decided that I needed to stop at a rest area and use the bathroom. So net and I went into the bathroom, of course she took me down to the big bathroom at the end and after I did my business, she grabbed me and started to make out with me. It was torture being at my dad's house and her not being able to touch me or hold me. Oh this was the second bathroom we had been in. I left out the detail that when we were still in my town, I stopped at a truck stop where there was a Dairy Queen. We slipped into the one person bathroom there and after I finished my business, she pinned me against the wall and we started making out, she was also rubbing my breasts, we were both getting very turned on but we realized that we needed to get on the road to head home. I don't know what it is about me and bathroom stalls, lol and if some of you remember me talking about the first kiss I got from a woman, she yanked me into a bathroom stall and started making out with me. Guess that's my calling card. Anyhow so back to the rest area bathroom, the rest area bathrooms are very open up top so it almost feels like you're outside so you get that sense. Well again when I finished my business, net grabbed me and pulled me to herself and started making out with me and I pinned her again up against the wall. She slipped her tongue inside my mouth and her hands up inside my shirt. She slipped her hands inside my athletic bra and found my nipples, then she rubbed them while she was making out with me, and guess what happened? Yup you guessed it, she brought me to an incredible orgasm standing there in the bathroom. We were very quiet, but other people were not when they did what people do in bathrooms. One lady made a really loud sound and net and I cracked up silently so she wouldn't hear us and get embarrassed. Wow what an incredible orgasm and feeling. Then we came home and got ready to head out to go play pool, but net couldn't keep her hands or her mouth off of me so we made out some more and we both needed a shower so we took a shower together and made out in the shower and touched each other's bodies all over as we soaped up and washed up each other.   Okay well guess that's a bit more than I had planned on writing, but I will tell more about our week later. Thanks for reading.

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My first time with net: It was the day for me to go and pick her up at the airport. I would be lying here if I didn't say that I was nervous. I arrived up at the airport early and got turned around and missed the parking garage, so I exited the parking lot and went back to the hotel to check us in before picking her up. I got into the room and laid down on the one bed and rested for a bit to pass the time. Then it was time to go back to the airport to pick her up. I arrived there and checked on the arrival time of her flight, then went into the bar and had a rum and coke. I finished that and then went for a short walk, checked the time and her flight was coming in earlier than was originally posted. I went back to the bar and had another drink, then as I saw people exiting the gate I knew her flight must be coming soon so I checked and it said that her flight was at the gate. I propped myself up against a column and waited for her to come down the corridor. I watched as person after person came out, then I saw her and I couldn't get to her fast enough. She walked a bit faster when she saw me and when we met we embraced each other in a big hug and held each other for what seemed like forever. Then it was time to go get her bag so she grabbed my hand and we walked together holding hands towards the elevator, where we both wanted to kiss each other, but it was a very short ride, so we saved that for later. We picked up her bag and then walked to my truck in the parking garage, and when we got to the truck I lifted up the tail gate and put her luggage in, then sat down with the back open and pulled her into me for a kiss. She touched my breast as we made out passionately, but the first time I felt electricity go through my body was when she reached out and grabbed my hand, then I felt even more electricity when she kissed me and touched me for the first time. We stood there for I don't know how long when we took a break and got into the truck to head for the hotel. I insisted on opening the door for her. The hotel was a good decision and I'm glad I listened to her, it also was very close to the airport. When we arrived I suggested that we order something from the restaurant that the woman at the front desk recommended. I was hungry and she was too and we both knew that we'd need to eat so we could have energy for the night ahead. I ordered two steaks for us and nice salads. We went and sat on the bed and started making out again and she touched my breast, it sent waves of electricity through me, the feeling was indescribable to have a woman touching me and kissing me, it felt so natural. We were getting pretty hot and heavy because I had changed into my comfy pajamas. Then the food arrived so we had to take a time out. Net said it's a good thing I ordered the food, otherwise we wouldn't have stopped. The steaks were wonderful and cooked perfect, I couldn't finish all of mine. When we were finished eating I suggested that she take a shower because she had been flying for a long time and a shower would probably feel good, then I told her I would like to give her a nice erotic massage and rub down. I made myself very comfortable for when she got out of the shower, I had taken my clothes off and was resting on the bed naked. She came out wrapped in a towel and looked at me and said I don't need this do I? I told her no, so she took the towel off leaving herself naked and asked me which bed were we going to use, so I chose and had her lie down on her stomach so I could do to her what I've only virtually done with cybering. It was so nice to be able to actually touch her body and touch a woman's body like that. Her skin was so soft and her body very beautiful. I loved putting my hands on her and giving her body kisses all up and down, and I couldn't believe it that I was actually going to make love to a woman, a woman that I have fallen completely and madly in love with. As I continued to rub her back and kiss her all over, I particularly loved kissing her ass and her thighs. I then got on her and straddled her as I rubbed her down, letting my breasts hang down and my nipples touch her skin as I massaged her, leaning down to give her kisses on her neck and shoulders. She loved the sensation of my breasts touching her. I then asked her to roll over so I could put my hands on her breasts and my mouth on her nipples. It was the first time I had ever had a woman's nipples in my mouth and the first time I had touched a woman's breasts like that. I then kissed her some more on her neck, then leaned down to kiss her and make out with her, that was when she whispered in my ear that she wanted to put her fingers inside me and wanted me to put my fingers inside her at the same time. So we both positioned ourselves to touch each other. I have never had my fingers inside another woman other than myself and I've never had anyone put their fingers inside of me besides her, not even my ex husbands. I didn't quite manage to find the right spot on her but she did find the right spot on me so she asked me to lie back so she could lick me and taste me with her fingers inside of me. It didn't take her very long to have me cum and totally soak the bed, good thing there were two beds in the room, and I managed to squirt and she wasn't expecting that and moved just in time that time so I didn't get her in the face. We made out some more and then went over on the other bed to get some rest because we were both very tired, so we fell asleep naked. She woke up before me and started gently rubbing my breasts and sucking on my nipples. I love being woken up like that and it was my favorite time in the morning. I was stirring when she woke up but I wasn't quite awake. I told her I wanted to lick her pussy because I wasn't sure if I'd be able to do it well or not. I loved seeing her up close like that and I enjoyed putting my mouth on her. She tasted better than I thought, but I wasn't quite sure what to expect. I managed to get her to cum with my tongue and it was so satisfying to hear her, I can't even describe the way it made me feel. Then I went up and started making out with her and passionately kissing her, it was the best feeling in the world. Then she had me lie back while she put her fingers inside me and she knew where my gspot was so she massaged that until I came and soaked that bed. Good thing it was time for us to be getting up and getting ready to check out. We took a nice shower together and I took a few minutes to lick her pussy and touch her nipples with my hands, but we didn't have time to do anything because we had to get ready and leave the hotel room. I'm so glad that my first time with a woman was with the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with and that we spent our first night in a hotel room. It was a very hot passionate night of making love and getting to know the woman that I had only seen on the other side of the screen on skype. She was worth the wait and I'm so glad that no other woman has touched me but her. Sex with her was amazing and everytime we made love not just had sex.

wolfbigrl88

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My First Experience

Okay ladies here is my story of my first time with a woman, the woman I love more than anything in this world, and for those of you who don't know who she is she goes by netballer1973 here on shys.   I was a little bit nervous as I drove up to the airport. I would be meeting her face to face for the first time since we began our long distance relationship nearly four months before. When I arrived at the airport I got turned around and missed the parking garaged and ended up in the big open lot, so I exited there and decided to go and check into the hotel room. I had about an hour and half before her flight would arrive. I was able to go and check in early at the hotel so I knew where it was when I picked her up I'd know where I was going. I rested up for a little bit on one of the two beds, then I got up and headed to the airport to pick her up. I went to the bar there and order a rum and coke, then I finished it and walked around a bit checked on her arrival time and then went back to the bar to get another drink. After I finished that drink I knew it was getting close to the time she would be arriving. I saw the passengers exiting the gate and propped myself up against a column as I watched and waited for her, I knew she would be coming soon, and then I saw her, I couldn't get to her fast enough, as soon as we met we embraced each other and held each other for a long time, then we walked hand in hand to go and pick up her luggage. We then headed to the truck and I lifted the tail gate up to put her bags in, then sat on the back and pulled her in to kiss me. We stood there and made out for a while but managed to stop long enough to head to the hotel room. I wanted to go into details here but this stupid computer has already lost two long detailed accounts I have typed for this blog. We made mad passionate love several times all night but the one thing we did that holds a special significance for us is when we both put our fingers inside of each other at the same time. I couldn't seem to find that right spot yet for her but she managed to find mine and made me cum harder than I have in a long time. Good thing there were two bed because I ended up soaking both of them, yes she's that good.   It was an incredible first experience for me and every thing I expected and more. We made love to each other and it was so beautiful.

wolfbigrl88

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