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i have to wonder..

Lookingformyself2014

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Who else checked out the girls they were friends with? Who else wanted them all to themselves when you were hanging out and missed them when they weren't there? At the time, i didn't realize this, but over time of thinking about this stuff, its becoming clear. One of them, Ashley, I started thinking i was crushing on her one day she wasn't there and i was missing her horribly...another one, kelso, was the one who i had serious feelings for, i realized that i would of loved a chance to explore having her as a girlfriend and i hated when we were with her friends mostly because i had to share her and i think on some level, i didn't want them to pick up on my feelings for her and to this day i wonder if she knew and i also have thought about telling her but we haven't talked in a few years and frankly im not sure its worth the effort..not to mention that she comes from an extremely religious family and while she was accepting of me, I know from a conversation we had years ago, that if her parents would freak about her dating a girl, they would probably have a cow if we were dating...i had thought of seeing what would happen if i did start talking to her again and brought this up since i stopped talking to her when i realized i had strong feelings for her and she has a chronic illness and i wouldn't want to do anything to make things worse or cause any crap... 

 


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It's difficult when there is some external circumstance making their life difficult. A girl I was crushing on recently is going through a period of bereavement and questioning one's sexuality is tricky enough at the best of times. At first I cut contact almost completely, but then I realized I was taking the coward's way out and resumed it at friendly levels.

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it really does make it difficult...it has been forever since i have talked to her and i do find myself going on her facebook and seeing what she's up to these days...i keep thinking how i just stopped talking to her and i was thinking of sending a friend request and seeing if she accepts it..

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7 minutes ago, ChemFem said:

Yeah, sending a friend request is a pretty low key way to reconnect. I say go for it.

Just did:) nothing yet, but i should probably wait longer than a few minutes lol

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20 minutes ago, Lookingformyself2014 said:

Just did:) nothing yet, but i should probably wait longer than a few minutes lol

Well she accepted my friend request and she messaged me on messenger!! If i didn't have to get up early in the morning, i would prob stay up and start really messaging her and now I'm starting to get a little giddy...

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4 minutes ago, Lookingformyself2014 said:

Well she accepted my friend request and she messaged me on messenger!! If i didn't have to get up early in the morning, i would prob stay up and start really messaging her and now I'm starting to get a little giddy...

Good night, sleep tight, don't let the social anxiety bite

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Keep doing what you're doing. Take it slow and give her a chance to initiate as well. At first it will sort of be like meeting each other all over again. Be patient, as you would with a new person (easier said than done I know)

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9 hours ago, ChemFem said:

Keep doing what you're doing. Take it slow and give her a chance to initiate as well. At first it will sort of be like meeting each other all over again. Be patient, as you would with a new person (easier said than done I know)

You are so right...it is like meeting a new person! We seem so different and i was shocked when she messaged me first...i added her and she wrote first, i didn't...i also thought about her before i fell asleep and i haven't done that in ages!!

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