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It's Been Nearly A Year Since My Last Entry!

Nikkita

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Hello there readers, followers or only just come across it'ers.

 

I have loads to get off my chest -

 

WOW nearly a year since I last posted anything to my blog eek! Well loads has happened and I have been away enjoying my life, not all of it has been good or lasting but most of it has been fun.

 

So working from the most recent backwards seems like the best plan ....

 

I have started a YouTube make up advice and recommendations channel, mainly aimed at the trans market but equally useable for those who are also into make up regardless of gender. Currently having camera issues as my iphone doesn't have enough free space and the new digital camcorder I bought now doesn't work! IT will be going back after the bank holiday!!

 

I have started to promote my business to the trans market, I've always more than happily seen trans or crossdessing customers but recently one of my new customers told me I should advertise specifically at them. Which I am now doing, but have discovered in the process that I girl I met lately and seem to have had a bit of a messy whirl wind involvement with (more on that later), is also starting a business in my area aimed at the same market - now initally it wasn't a problem as she was approching it from a totally different angle and we didn't clash with what we offered. I have been in business for myself for the last 8yrs as both a professional freelance make up artist and a qualified beauty theapist (two seperate lots of training and both VERY different). This girl in my area it seems in the last 3 wks to have desided to under cut me and to promote other people who cover my expertise - Which if I totally honest has pissed me off a bit - I think she sees it as I don't live close so it's not my patch, but I have covered the whole of the county and neighbouring ones for years, I also suspect that our involvement that whent messy has something to do with her now stepping all over me .... I get easily offened when it comes to my job, what I'm good at and work hard at to support my family every day for the last 8 yrs, to some you may thing oh move past it - but the industry I work in is cut throte .... which I hate being but it looks like I'm going to have to so I don't loose clients.

 

The messy involvement .... We met while both being catwalk models for a fetish/alternative market, we had instant chemistry OMG she was so beautiful and still is. She like myself has a partner and family.... I thought she is perfect. She was looking for samething to me, a female to be involved with who understands that our families will always come first ..... I thought more than perfect - exactly what I'm after, we get on similar interests sexually attracted to each other........ WELL after a whirl wind few weeks where we seemed to have grown very close, I was daft enough to take a good friends advice and ask her to be my girlfriend on her birthday...... Bold move you say - infact TOO bold it seems, I accept that taking it in and of course discussing it with her partner was to be expected - The responce I get is "I don't want anything excussive, because I have my own family" ... Well duh I know that, so do I and I'm married so that clearly cannot be .... I reply something along those lines but nicer of course and point out that as I consider myself to be poly (in my case only other women are involved be they casually or as an additional relationship) there is clearly no chance of exclussivity - on reflextion here I was maybe a little unintensionally harsh, as I feel like a knocked back teenager, I was certainly behaving like one according to my hubby. So I may have got her back up? I don't know, but this was the mess ..... She then didn't speak to me for three weeks or more (we had been speaking every day), so I figured too much too fast giver some space and see what happens. Well the other night she finally texts me a reply to a message then calls me out of the blue shortly after....I was meant to be staying over at hers so we could both attend an event where we were to promote our businesses, she tells me I'm no longer able to stop as she has family coming who will also be at said event - I think fine, will make it more difficult for me but not impossible (difficult is an understatement - bloody sunday service nightmere that was Good friday!). Anyway I eventually get there several hours late and can't stop long as getting back was being hell - Yep she was busy working promoting herself and her new business 'I accept that', but other than a comment of "you look like a doll" that was the only acknowledgement I got, I spoke more with her mother and mother-in-law (both also there) .... her own mum was suprised I wasn't staying at hers! Not to mention the distinct lack of the family she mentioned would be staying at hers ...... NOW I AM NO MUG, that was the rudested lying brush off ever! and to add further insult to injury ... she then starts promoting another business similar to my own, in the place that was supposed to be for me >>>> I know thats life and I shouldn't let it bother me, but it does and that hurt!

 

For those of you who know me on facebook, you'll know my car broke down and I have been without a car now for the last 6 wks! :( I blew the head gasket, so public transport has become my only mode of getting about. I'm have a reall ball ache trying to get anyone indervidual or garage to fix my car as I cannot afford twice the price to take it to the main dealers.

 

I seems to have been dragged semi willingly into the fetish scene >>>>There are lots of hot Bi women on the fetish scene<<<<<< I know it's not everyones cup of tea and like all tea can come at different strenghts, but I like it so far having found a few female play mates ;) but sadly nothing very lasting .... It seems I have a pattern of not being very commitable to even just for regular hook ups/booty calls. ANY WAY I have discovered the delights of sensation play, rope (tying people up) and the extreamly sexy things you can do to people with a sharp knife - WITHOUT cutting them, I'll add here - OMG SO sexy and of course consensual.

 

I have dabbled with sex clubs - REALLY NOT my thing, but you don't know if you don't try. If causual sex with any old randomer is what your after then knock yourself out. My advice to those who may want to try them - do your research if possible don't go alone (certainly to the night club type) and SAFE sex all the way!!

 

Designed and presented a talk for Victim Supports LGBT conference about bisexuality, went down really well and they are now using a lot of my links and details now around the country :) to help people and to educate volunteers.

 

Erm yep I think my last post was along the lines of get out there if you want to find a woman as you won't find one hidding behind a computer .... VERY true I have met some lovely ladies, as friends as fuck buddies and random snogs on a night out - none of which would have happened sat at the computer pining for it.

 

Well I think I will leave it there for now, have fun all x


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Can you send me the name of your makeup line? I'm gender nonconforming and would feel far more comfortable wearing makeup that was designed with that in mind.

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