I've been looking for a woman to date for a while now. Not only have I not found her but I haven't had a date...it's embarrassing to say but it 3 years. I'm a nice person. Or at least I think I am. I try to treat people well. I think I look decent and I can't land not one single date. I know part of it is that I'm shy but I've tried dating sites, I try to keep my mind and eyes open for potential dates but no luck.
The few women that have shown interest have lived a zillion miles away, or are married or have boyfriends. Why can't I find a simple woman that's looking for a relationship with another woman and a monogamous long term relationship. I'm beginning to think I'm the only woman alive that likes women and wants to be with just one. Maybe it's old fashioned and out of style.
Some of the women that have contacted me abruptly stop and then start up months later like nothing ever happened which leads me to believe that I'm second choice or that they are already involved in a relationship and trying to have a little fun on the side or trying to play the field.
I had one woman from Okcupid start messaging me and wanted me to call her but, as soon as I did she acted like she was mad that I did and got off the phone quickly. She sent me messages a week or so later and I figured she was married or involved and didn't want me calling. So, I didn't respond and blocked her number.
Recently I was texting a woman that lives 45 min away but, I stopped texting to see if you would contact me. Just trying to see if she was serious about wanting a relationship. I haven't heard anything from her in several days.
I won't text her. Why bother. Just wanted to vent on my blog. Anyway, I'm taking this time to continue working on myself so when and if I meet that special person, I'll be whole and complete by myself and I'll want her because I want her not because I need her for anything.
weight loss update: Still losing weight but slower. Saw my doctor the other day, she was pleased with my progress so far. I have to go back in and get checked in a month. She wants to see how much I've lost then, check my bloodwork and bloodpressure.