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About Monarchmarathoner

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  1. So my husband and I have these friends. They have been together since college and just got married after 10 years together. We knew the dude, Jim, for a long time. My husband grew up with him and I have been friends with him since high school. Jim's wife, Annie, has been around since early college so we all have known each other for awhile. But we don't really talk about deep stuff together even though we have been friends for awhile. I would call us old friends, but not close friends. Jim's personality it pretty introverted. A little immature. He's the type to just want to spend all day with his computer. His wife is more outgoing, a little bit butch with super short hair, facial piercings. I always got a bit of a gay vibe from her. She also has a lot of lesbian friends which doesn't necessarily mean anything but I just always thought she liked chicks too. But we have never talked about it. So recently a mutual friend found Annie on Bumble. She said she was in an ethically non-monogamous relationship and she was looking for an open minded lady or couple. I'm not really surprised but at he same time I'm so curious! Mostly because I'd love for my husband to be that supportive of my sexuality. And I just want to know questions like how long has this been going on and does Jim date dudes or participate with the couples/ladies they find. I'm not at all interested in trying to get with them though. Neither is my type, my husband would never go for it, and we have known each other for too long. But I am certainly intrigued. The four of us are going to the beach together in early July and I'm curious to know if they will try anything or if they will at least open up to us about their situation. Just thought I would share! The good news is this has opened up conversation between my husband and me about it which works in my favor. Jim and Annie don't know I'm bi. Or at least I haven't told them but I do think they are at least suspicious because they drop hints from time to time.
  2. I get how it can be difficult to speak openly and freely with your husband if he's feeling some discomfort towards the situation. My husband is also uncomfortable with my bisexuality which makes me not want to talk to him about to spare his feelings and to avoid confrontation. But I know I need to be better at it. Recently I've been more casual when talking about my attraction towards women. For example we were on vacation recently in another country and I was hoping I would be able to talk him into a threesome with an anonymous girl. That didn't work out, but it did open conversation for me to comment about girls I was attracted to and see if he was also attracted. It was kind of fun but my husband has never been the guy to sit with friends and talk about hot women so it was out of his comfort zone to begin with and then even more so since I'm his wife. But it's important to talk openly and frequently to normalize it. Good luck to you girl! Keep us updated.
  3. Thank you all for the advice! So to clear things up, I'm a nurse and she's a scribe. She is going to nursing school this summer or fall so she won't work with me too much longer. I did text her to remind her about hanging out tomorrow (a non pressure "group hang" situation) and she responded after an appropriate amount of time that she wanted to but wasn't sure if she could because she may have to work late. She also called me "dude" in the text which seemed friend zoney to me. But who knows. Sparks could fly. Or they may not. Plenty of lady fishes in the sea. 😉
  4. So there's a woman who I have been pining for for a couple months. We indirectly work together so I see her a few times a week but not for an extended period of time. I'm mostly closeted. Most people assume that I am straight because I am married to a man, and I don't really correct people unless they ask. I'm not ashamed of my sexuality, but bisexuality is complicated as you know so I don't feel like telling everyone I know and having weird judgements that I'm a "lesbian in denial" or just want to screw anything that moves. So only close friends and my husband know. I'm a very friendly person and I have a knack for setting my sights on someone to befriend and then following through quite well. This works pretty well with flirtations too. However, I always kind of panic when it gets to that point of moving in the friend zone. I set my sights on this lady because im very attracted to her but I've also caught her staring at me on more than one occasion. We now talk regularly and I invited her to get drinks with me with some work friends. She took the opportunity to give me her number. But now I'm not sure how to proceed. She is dating a guy who lives elsewhere, so I could assume she's straight. But I'm just getting a vibe that she's not. The staring, she has some mannerisms, her voice drops a little lower when she's talking to me. Basically, I'm at the crossroads of making a move soon or this could just turn into friendship which isn't the end of the world but it's not what I want from her. I don't have much experience with this except the last time this happened, the girl I had my sights on came on to me very strongly which intimidated me so I didn't follow through with anything. I don't want to be rejected or outed. But I don't want to pass anything up either. What do you ladies suggest that I do?
  5. This is such a great thread of the women on here sharing their own experiences! I am also married to a man who I have been with for 10 years. I started realizing my sexuality around when I was 23 but it has really hit hard in recent years (I'm almost 29 now). About a year ago I had a make out session with a lesbian who I met and it left an impression. I told my husband and then "came out" to him which I had been thinking of doing for years. He was supportive in that he understood my internal conflict, but he has not been supportive of me exploring this. I know this seems silly since I'm relatively young, but I feel like my best days are slipping by. We are thinking of making a family soon and one thing that's holding me back is my want to be with a woman. For now, I have mild flirtations and crushes on women but I haven't acted. When/if the time comes, I'm unsure what I will do. But I haven't ruled out the possibility of having a secret affair since my husband is so closed off to the thought but it is so important to me.
  6. My husband is my best friend but our biggest issue is and has always been about sex and intimacy. Mostly his lack of interest and our different preferences. He's more than a little threatened by my bisexuality. We treat each other with repspect and have deep love for one another, but there is not as much passion as I would like. I feel like sex is a chore for him. So we don't do it much. Aside from that, we are very happy.
  7. Ok so here's a basic rundown of my life so far....I'm almost 29, been married for almost 4 years (to a man) to the only real sexual partner I've ever had. I'm also his only sexual partner. I came out almost a year ago to him as bisexual and he told me he would never be ok with the idea of me sleeping with a woman. We started marriage counseling over the summer but he was never particularly open to it. He only went to a couple sessions but we did have some breakthrough moments on our own. But he still shuts down at the idea of me sleeping with a woman. Ive done my best to "normalize" the idea as much as possible by commenting on women and if I am attracted to them. Things were going well with us for awhile. He was being attentive and understanding even though I knew I couldn't sleep with anyone else I was willing to give up that pipe dream because things have been going so well. We have discussed trying to have a baby this summer. But lately, I've gotten distracted.... I feel like we slipped back into a boring routine. Plus there's this girl. We will call her Olive. She works with me. If you've read some of my past posts, this girl is different from the other lady friend I work with who I have mentioned (that girl and I are still friends and there's an understanding that we are attracted to each other but that's as far as it will go). Olive is a scribe, so she works closely with a doctor on my unit and helps with their documentation. She's also very young. Just finished college so maybe 22? I didn't notice her much at first because our scribes all look very similar. Just brunette girls who I never need to interact with much. But have you ever noticed someone looking at you out of the corner of your eye? Yeah that's what Olive does to me. So I noticed her on that alone and started feeling those familiar butterflies when we made her contact. It was seriously like something out of a movie. Our eyes would meet. Maybe shyly smile. One of us would quickly look away. If we were both in the nurses station and I was talking to someone, she would kind of insert herself into conversation a little bit. And if I was looking somewhere and she walked by me, I would feel her eyes on me. It made me feel uneasy in a very exciting way. She's super pretty. Tall, skinny, athletic. Naturally friendly with most people so it makes it hard for me to realize if she is like this with everyone or just me. But if she works on another unit and I walk by, if she hears my voice she will whip around to get a look at me. She might just be observant or nosy or be distracted easily. But there's a part of me that thinks she's interested. I'm not sure of her sexual orientation. Also, she told me a couple days ago that she feels like she knows me from somewhere. Turns out she was a former patient of mine when I worked at an outpatient clinic. So maybe she's been looking at me so much trying to figure out where she knows me from. I just don't know. But I'm so distracted by her. I love my husband, but I'm lusting hard after Olive. I feel like trying to ignore my feelings towards women isn't working anymore. My feelings keep coming back even if they hibernate for a little while. I guess in my head if I get to the point where I realize something could actually happen with Olive, I'll talk seriously to my husband about it. Until then, I'm just going to try to keep getting to know her and get a feel for what she might be interested in with me. What do you think?
  8. So I'm a squirter but I have a lot of mixed feelings about this. I hate that it's uncontrollable and messy but I usually come much harder when I squirt. It probably happens during 5% of my orgasms but there are sometimes moves I can do that will increase the odds of it happening. So I know this is something that they simulate in porn and I think guys usually like it? My husband is just whatever about it. He isn't bothered by it but it doesn't turn him on any more than usual. Although I think he gets a certain sense of satisfaction when there's "proof" that I had a very good orgasm. I'm interested to see if you ladies squirt or if this is common or uncommon. I have very limited sexual experience when it comes to numbers of partners so I just don't know. In the lesbian world is this looked at as gross? Or hot? Or just ok? I'm thinking of sleeping with a woman for the first time and this is one of my anxieties.