I guess that I am embarrassed that I feel confused. Not sure if that makes sense or not but I just feel like most women my age know by know who they are and what they want and here I am suddenly feeling like I have been living a lie all my life. We don't really have any Pride events nearby that I know of but I will definitely look into finding a support group. I haven't come out to anyone yet, heck I am not even 100% certain myself yet as I've never even kissed another woman.Thank you for the advice, I really do appreciate it!
So I am a 40 year old woman who has questioned my sexuality all of my life but have never acted on my curiosity. I have only ever dated men and I am not sure that I have ever really been in love. I find some women attractive and have fantasized often about acting on that attraction but I guess I have just been too afraid. I have an 18 year old son and I think that has been a huge factor in my not wanting to explore my sexuality. Now that he is looking to leave the nest I have been thinking more and more about testing the waters as far as maybe dating women. I am still scared out of my mind to be honest but I am not sure why. I work in a male dominated environment and I think that if anyone from work were to find out I would catch a lot of grief. I want to be happy. I don't want to feel embarrassed. I don't know what I am doing or even how to meet other women. Feeling very overwhelmed. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!