my-curious-heart

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About my-curious-heart

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    Big Tease
  • Birthday October 17

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    NJ
  • Signature Fragrance
    Cool Water
  • Favourite TV Show
    The voice, AGT, Lword
  • Favourite Film
    An affair to remember
  1. I've been brutally honest with her but she doesn't seem to care says she has to know. I can't lie unlike my gf and husband I'm not very good at being poly, I'm innately very monogamous..part of my confusion lies in the fact that we are very compatible our goals and values align, she is very monogamous too and we are very emotionally connected always have been. The only think left is physical connection so the curiousity of what could be is messing with my head. But yes you are right I just have to say it again and stick to it..stop thinking about the what could be..and start thinking about doing the right thing for everyone involved.
  2. Thank you for your honesty, exactly what I need to hear. It's a dumb idea deep down I know it is. I've said the same words to her but then she convinces me otherwise. Has even offered to buy me a plane ticket to go to Vegas for a weekend with her, somehow she managed to get her wife's approval. I declined a weekend alone but said I would go with my husband and she should bring her wife. For me it's a little easier my gf and husband are very poly,meaning I run very little risk of losing either. But it is very very selfish of me to even consider the possibility because I know my friend risks losing her wife. Now to figure out how to back away without hurting her...
  3. A little over a year ago I started a relationship with a close friend, we are both married and husbands are aware that we are together. It's been hard balancing but I fell in love with her. Here's where I'm confused. About two weeks I decided to call my old best friend with whom I lost contact with 5 years ago. She was my closest friend we shared everything. Well when I called her it was like we never stopped talking, within minutes of the conversation I told her I was bi and had a gf. She was shocked since she came out as a lesbian when we were teenagers and I was a straight as they come. We talked for hours and texted most of the night. The next day I texted her letting her know I was sotry if I ever led her on because I would flirt then pull away. I explained that it wasn't intentional and that I just realized last yeat I may have had a crush on her when we were younger. Turns out she was in love with me for many years but was afraid to tell me because I was in and out of relationships with men. Forward two weeks, we have texted everyday since shared some memories and both confessed that we are still curious. She admitted she still has strong feelings for me but she is married to a woman right now. My GF knows some of what has been said but I feel like I'm cheating on her because I'm sharing things I've only been sharing with my gf for the past year, I've also done some flirting in text and on the phone some may say light sexting. We actually discussed putting boundaries and set some in place but it seems as if we can't. I don't know what to do because she was and still is my best friend and I am curious but I also feel like it's not right. My gf has given me permission to explore if that's what I need to do since she was my first. Although she is jealous, dhe said she just wants me to be happy and doesn't want to hold me back. We have been exclusive up to this point. (Except three random woman who found the need to grab me and kiss me without consent) Anyway im not sure what to do. Do I ignore my best friend or just continue? I'm so confused..I don't think it will lead to much but a one night stand because she lives fat away me and is in a closed marriage. She confessed she feels like she will cheat on her wife if we're alone together because she's had the same feelings for me for 23 years and wants to know of we have a full connection. She's not the type to cheat so I know her feelings for me are intense right now with what is and wish I would have..I don't want to hurt her or my gf.. Oh I should tell you the other night I was with my gf and we were kissing and I found myself thinking about this other girl for a second...ugh it made me feel bad..