Asch311

Silver Shy-Bi Girl
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About Asch311

  • Rank
    Getting Flirty
  • Birthday 03/11/1981

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  • Music
    Hip Hop( the good stuff),Whitney Houston,Alicia Keys,Sara Bareilles, Adele,Motown hits
  • Location
    Florida
  • Interests
    Spending time with my two children, reading,roller skating, dancing (especially hip-hop and reggae), catching a flick, taking a walk with great views, writing, yoga, reading.
  • Favourite TV Show
    Gilmore Girls,The Golden Girls, Grey's Anatomy, Shameless, HBO, Chopped, Real Husbands of Hollywood
  • Favourite Film
    Harry Potter, Lords of Doggtown, Sleepless in Seattle, Knocked up

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  1. Hi Asch. Where in Florida do you live? How are things going with your crush?

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    2. 63395

      63395

      Yoga practice is definitely my happy place too.

    3. Asch311

      Asch311

      Hey, Love. Sorry I've been off this site for quite some time. I'm back now and hope to meet as many genuine people as possible.

    4. 63395

      63395

      Welcome back. What's new since you were last on here? 

  2. So true! The daydreams, oh the lovely daydreams! :girlinlove:
  3. Welcome and enjoy! I'm just returning from a few month hiatus. lol. This is great site...oh how I've missed it.
  4. you are the sweetest thought that I can’t shake you enter, immediately you get lost in my maze of amaze over you I really do try to leave you in the friend zone I know that I don’t want to hold your hand in public. yet. yet, I still want to hold your hand. I know I can’t be the person you introduce as your lover. your trust in Catholicism won’t let that happen. you are in that world. I'm in another world. Desperately wanting you to crossover. Even if it's temporary. I just want to know that you're willing to. Willing to be with me just to see. See the me that wants to make you feel my love. A tale. Adele tells us about it, and you know. and even though you have said yes to be his, you are still something to me because you too won’t leave me be. you need me and you want me. you want me there. and I’m aware I’m playing with fire. we need us... what is this emotion? the limbic system at work in the homeostasis of US. we have to keep us in check and all the systems and the souls working together to get me to this point where I can sit, and say, and decide, and notice ,and evaluate and make sense while I watch a TedxUCLA talk on bisexulaity and decide… to write and let it come through and flow because in a way it’s all that i know that which it is through and it is you
  5. i hate that I’m here upset. upset with her and slightly more upset at myself. why did i go there? why did i allow my self to anticipate and expect and ready myself for time with her? by now, i should know that hoping only leads to disappointment. and then an escalating feeling of anger toward her. Alas, i caused this. i crept into this space. i made visible my desperation to walk (not run) side by side as the hot midday sun bake us and resultingly cause sweat to drip profusely from unwarranted areas. that, i would endure to be able to see her in jogging pants accompanied by that light glow she gets when breaking a sweat. i won’t get that today. our plan did not come to fruition. and so i bathe in frustration. and more frustration and i see petulance not far from arriving. i mentally slap myself. a wake-the-hell-up kind of slap. and just enough to snap me back. to the reality of my unreciprocated desire for her. and slowly i come to peace. i’ve scolded myself enough. i realize. i am afforded a chance to practice my self control and let feelings go and be resilient. this practice is allowing me to practice. practice having no expectations. practice the overdue unhinging of attachment to her. practice no expectaions.