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About bi-the-ocean

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  • Music
    varies with mood, oldies, pop rock and hard/industrial rock straight to sappy love song playlist
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    family, art and the ocean
  • Signature Fragrance
    eucalyptus oil, and/or lemon
  • Favourite Book
    Adams Empire by Evan Green
  • Favourite TV Show
    The Walking Dead, True Blood,
  • Favourite Film
    Harry Potter movies,

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  1. Eucalyptus and lemongrass are my two favourite scents. I have both alternating or together in an oil burner most days. I have never been into flowery perfume smells , they feel overpowering and unnatural to me although I do crave a mild vanilla smell occasionally. Goats milk, soap is great, I've found brilliant soaps here ... the eucalyptus and spearmint is luscious!
  2. ..."the nights were mainly made for saying things that you can't say tomorrow day" Do I wanna know, Arctic Monkeys I have those nights too.. but am never so brave and bold to actually go out or get on Tinder to find someone and make it happen. Hope all that energy and thoughts turned into a nice dream for you to think about!
  3. Here's my story... I wrote it over a year and a half ago, but never posted it.... it's still the most amazing and wonderful thought in my head. My recent first experience.. She was a friend of a friend, on holiday and we were hanging out with friends and doing touristy things when the dynamic between us changed at a party. We were drinking, sitting close together, talking and laughing, slightly touching when I asked if she wanted to spend the night at my place. We walked home together late at night, stopping at a lookout on the beach for our first kiss. It was so soft and tender. We hugged and kissed and touched until I was moaning into her mouth and breathless and I broke away long enough to say "Let's go home". We did, and settled things down a little, drank some water and chatted for a while. When I followed her to my bedroom, I was in a trance. I watched as her shorts came off and did the same and when she leaned over to kiss me and we fell backwards on to the bed together I just about melted. It all came so naturally and easily, there was no fear or doubt. We kissed with hands going everywhere. After a while I reached around and unhooked her bra and the first feeling of our bodies together was something I'll never forget.... So warm and so soft and just so right. We kept going and the kisses seemed to get hotter and more desperate. When she lifted herself up and started kissing down my body it was thrilling and beautiful but losing the heat and bodily contact was hard and I wanted to grab her and pull her close again. When she reached between my legs I was lost to the sensations and let myself go. I lost all sense of time, but eventually dragged her back up to kiss and hug and touch some more. We kissed and rubbed our hands all over each other and ended by tribbing, rubbing against each other until we were both spent and exhausted. She fell asleep quickly and I watched her breathing regulate as she lay beautiful and naked in my bed. I woke every time she stirred that first night. She would roll over and lay her arm or head on me, or reach out to touch and bring me closer as we alternated spooning. On the second night she asked me what I liked.. I was so breathless and hot I couldn't speak.. I rolled her over and kissed my way down her body, running my hands everywhere and licking and kissing and teasing as she gasped and writhed in response. As I moved slowly down I started rubbing through her underwear. I could feel her heat and wetness as I used my palm and fingers to touch her. She took the underwear off and I kept rubbing, my palm on top and two fingers running down either side of her labia to meet at her opening. I felt a drop of wetness and couldn't stop myself from moving closer. I breathed her in as I kept rubbing, her smell intoxicating, drawing me forward to kiss. I softly kissed her, starting at the edges using my lips to massage hers. I could feel her wanting more so I started lapping at her like a cat with a bowl of milk. First one side, then the other, then straight up the middle. I repeated this as she moaned and moved with it, then started using my fingers again.. two together, meeting at her opening, now wet and inviting. I used one finger then, rubbing around in tiny circles until i felt the tip of my finger enter her. My heart jumped into my mouth and I groaned loudly when I felt her heat and softness. I started moving my finger deeper, pressing against her top wall while I moved my mouth up and swirled my tongue all around her clit. I could feel it now, erect and ready for attention. After a while I returned to lapping at her lips and then as she seemed to be close I added another finger and slowly moved in and out, adding a slight random twist and finding new places to reach inside her. I held her thigh and placed my whole mouth on top of her clit, sucking gently while my tongue alternately lapped or flicked or swirled around until i felt her climax come. As she slowed I leaned back and watched her body subside, rubbing around her labia and inner thigh with my thumbs until she was calm. I kissed up her body and rested my head on her chest and she was asleep within a minute, beautiful and peaceful and wonderful. We spent four days and nights together before her holiday was over and she went 16000km home to the opposite end of the world.
  4. just an update.. that girl i met for pool became my girlfriend. She is lovely and we had some amazing, fun, sweet times together until just recently. It just wasn't right in the long run. It happens and it hurts and I feel sad and guilty and responsible and horrible, but I guess I wouldn't take it back and hope she feels the same and that we can be good friends after some time has passed and we've both healed a little. Whatever happened, it wasn't for a lack of trying on both of our parts and i guess that's what the take away is.. trying really is all you can do!
  5. Plenty of Fish... POF seems to be working for me, have had lots of interest, 20+ in a week, a few awkward and a few really good conversations, and met someone locally that i'm going to try and get to know better over lunch and a game of pool tomorrow. I joined as a spur of the moment thing and so far so good. I haven't upgraded to a full account but don't think it's necessary. I can see if someone 'wants to meet' and send them a message, just can't use the rest of that feature. Go for it ladies.. there are people out there just like you looking for people just like you.
  6. No spark at first sight.. it smolders and grows.
  7. Hey girl do you remember me? Cake by the ocean.. I thought you left ... Good to see you around here .. :-)

    1. bi-the-ocean


      Sure do! I'm in and out all the time, get busy and come back when i get a chance,Thanks for checking in on me ;) 

  8. I'm all hormonal here too.. I can tell it's bad when i'm listening to sad 80's music and crying randomly and even knowing logically that it's partly a hormonal response, it doesn't help at the time. The feelings are real, the depression is real and intense.. It will pass though, hang in there!
  9. I've had a year of ups and downs and would love some stability and peace next year. I'm heading to the beach with kids and friends to watch the fireworks from across the bay and see what we can see locally. My resolution is to stop with the drinking that's crept up slowly to become a regular thing. It doesn't make me happy or relaxed, doesn't help me sleep, it's just become a stupid habit and it will be done tonight! Wish you happiness and love Vampire . Happy New Year!
  10. Sara - Starship troopers Love me like no one has ever loved me before hurt me, no one could ever hurt me more I'll never find another girl like you.. for happy endings it takes two we're fire and ice A dream won't come true... No time is a good time for goodbyes
  11. Haha blueberry, doesn't that sound horrible!! I've really cared enough to keep trying through hard times and hurtful behaviours that I know aren't right, kind of accepting that everyone has their 'things' about them, but not forever! and i don't need or want the drama either.. ! Thanks Vampire, you know how much it meant to me to finally meet and click with someone.. so yeah, the tragic first really hurts
  12. Hiya vampire... i've been in and out, just not as much, it's great to hear from you , hope you are doing well! We've already had a few of ...those talks , i put my big girl pants on and confront her directly and things improve for a little bit but always seem to end up back in the uncomfortable space. Socially dense .. at times!! and so 'cold' she has a well earned reputation as 'the ice queen' ..but she's not always like that, I have seen her softer, more open and vulnerable side, just wish she'd show it more often. I can handle her criticisms and moodiness, and was happy making compromises on the personal space issues, knowing that she really is just used to being alone, but it seems so one sided. I'm the only one trying, so every day it gets harder to keep the peace. I am considering my kids, we've all made behavioural changes to accomodate her and most are a good thing, but letting them see the tension and unhappiness and me accepting that, is definitely not something i want! I don't think there will be any more in betweens, I've come out already and told her to leave if she wasn't happy.. our next conversation will be me demanding that she leaves.. and i really didn't want to have to do that!
  13. thanks for the comments both of you! getting it out did help a little... I wish I could put it all down on paper, just doesn't seem to work that way, and i haven't been able to relax and 'let go' enough to really paint for months. I hope we can talk about it too but one weekend just wasn't enough time to heal, everything feels as raw as it has done for weeks. Chemfem - she didn't move here to be with me, she'd been talking about it for years before i met her. She made it clear that studying was her priority but also couldn't wait to spend time with each other.. A little bit of mixed messages. She's pushed other people away by being a bit judgemental, a little bit self absorbed, insensitive to other people's feelings, demanding when she wants to be and then closed off and unavailable whenever she feels like it. Eventually people just stop trying to be her friend when she makes it so hard! Her friends are my friends, so the awkwardness between them means group activities are almost impossible these days, and again, you just stop trying eventually. I'm worried that she's going to end up really alone, which is just going to make her harder and colder. She's not my responsibility, but i do care about her enough to want her to be 'okay'.