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caliwoman last won the day on April 11 2017

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    Anything and everything except 75% of country
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    Palm Springs, California
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    Any and everything.
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  • Favourite Book
    She's Come Undone
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    Game of Thrones, Dexter, Ray Donovan, Wings
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    No Country for Old Men, Six Degrees of Separation, When Harry Met Sally, Postcards from the Edge
  1. I often feel worse when I go back on dating sites. Before signing up, I’m hopeful that this time around, I’ll find someone to connect with. Then I get on, it’s okay for about a day, and then I get bummed out allllll over again. How’s it going for everyone else? Have you met someone recently? Any dates?
  2. I’m the same way. Very different with the way I had been with men vs what I want with a woman now.
  3. I have a bit of a crush on Rachel Brosnahan of The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel. I had watched a round table with her involved and had a sneaking suspicion she might be (at least) bisexual. I looked it up online and it directed me to a very hot scene between her and another woman on the show House of Cards. Completely turned on AND smitten. She’s the one on top.
  4. I believe I was in a very spirtitual situation that has yet to resolve itself. I never say “my twin flame,” because I’ve read about and talked to too many people who were wrong (and then devastated). The issue I have with the TF community is that it perpetuates much toxic, unhealthy behavior. What I know of my journey and those walking a similar path: TF’s have much karma together. It usually takes years to resolve. At times, each will run and chase. The “feminine” is the more awakened of the two, but she usually has more wounding and thus, more healing to do. You will not even be thinking of this person when and if they come back to you. When and if they do come back to you, it will not be a “need” for you to be in relationship. You’ll have shed all of that and risen from the ashes. You will choose to be in relationship with them and it will finally be on equal footing. If you’re a true TF, there is a bigger purpose than just a relationship. You’ll have found your life’s calling and you’ll change the world with your love and healing abilities. True TF relationships seem to be rare. I don’t read about many in Union. When I started awakening, I was in a group of people who knew who their TF was. They all ended up being incorrect and one had a restraining order. I was in a karmic marriage. I know how addictive that is and how difficult it can be to leave. You feel chained and can’t escape and you mistake it for love. Then I met a woman and I felt such a connection, I couldn’t explain it. Other worldly. That person was not my TF, but rather a soul catalyst who started me down this path. It took a couple of years to get over that. Then I met someone else and I can’t begin to tell you the odd things that have happened to me. It’s like out of a movie. I don’t talk about it much, knowing most wont believe me. Ive been “shown” I’m meant to be with this person at some point in my life, after karma is healed and Justice is done, but at this point, I’m starting to realize that this isn’t importantly to me and finally, learning to let go. I’ve had to go through a bunch of jacked up lessons, even defying the Universe itself. Like I said, it’s crazy. Lol. People assume a TF relationship is an easy thing. It’s not. If it isn’t fraught with soul crushing difficulty, it’s probably a soulmate relationship (which is also good!). I wouldn’t wish this pain on my worst enemy, even though it’s meant for my highest good. It’s dramatic and chaotic and it changes who you are. You won’t recognize yourself or the other person when all is said and done. It’s that much of a game-changer. Maybe one day, I can tell other people how this story ends, but at this moment, I’m happy to be single and finding myself. And I know the Universe loves and supports me as does my HS.
  5. Grrrrr! So frustrating! WTH am I doing wrong?! I’ve seen girls with pics of themselves in thongs, bikinis, pasties... I don’t have anything remotely similar and yet I keep getting banned Anyone else experience this problem?!
  6. Oh, I just saw this. Good one! Lol. Crazy to think about, huh. Imply someone isn't "the one" and then beg them to stay.
  7. That’s very true. I remember talking to you about that
  8. At the moment I’m talking to a therapist who only wants to be FWB. We still have to meet.
  9. Update: this ended up causing more drama for me. She apparently shared what happened with at least one member of the meet-up group I belonged to and now this person has blocked me and removed herself from the meet-up page I host. I’m more upset with my extreme reactions in this situation (because I can’t control what anyone else does; at the end of the day, I want to know I’m being the best version of myself that I can). I did end up blocking her and soon after, she left a VM apologizing profusely that she’s never acted like that much of a jerk before. That was last week. I kept her blocked; I have this tendency to block people out rather than deal with the emotions that come. I was quite disappointed that things weren’t panning out, as she’s the only person I’ve been interested in for a very long time. All this stuff with this other woman being told, and the subsequent blocking, happened yesterday. I’m not fond of the idea of my name being brought up. It’s also resulted in me feeling very bummed out; the LGBT community is so, so small and I don’t want my name dragged around or stories shared about me. There are lessons in all of this for me and I find myself feeling awful for the role I played and the fact I still need to block people out to avoid any uncomfortable emotion.
  10. You’re telling me! I thought the same dang thing lol
  11. I"m sorry for your loss!
  12. “Cloaked vanity.” I was wondering about this.
  13. Thanks! It takes so much for me to even get a little interested. I’m glad I ended this much sooner.
  14. No offense taken! On the previous instance, I told her she’s beautiful. She had sent a pic between there and I said, “Wow. You’re f-cking gorgeous.” When she said the ugly remake again, I joked she just wanted to hear it. Shrugs. Lol.