I believe I was in a very spirtitual situation that has yet to resolve itself.
I never say “my twin flame,” because I’ve read about and talked to too many people who were wrong (and then devastated). The issue I have with the TF community is that it perpetuates much toxic, unhealthy behavior.
What I know of my journey and those walking a similar path:
TF’s have much karma together. It usually takes years to resolve.
At times, each will run and chase.
The “feminine” is the more awakened of the two, but she usually has more wounding and thus, more healing to do.
You will not even be thinking of this person when and if they come back to you.
When and if they do come back to you, it will not be a “need” for you to be in relationship. You’ll have shed all of that and risen from the ashes. You will choose to be in relationship with them and it will finally be on equal footing.
If you’re a true TF, there is a bigger purpose than just a relationship. You’ll have found your life’s calling and you’ll change the world with your love and healing abilities.
True TF relationships seem to be rare. I don’t read about many in Union. When I started awakening, I was in a group of people who knew who their TF was. They all ended up being incorrect and one had a restraining order.
I was in a karmic marriage. I know how addictive that is and how difficult it can be to leave. You feel chained and can’t escape and you mistake it for love. Then I met a woman and I felt such a connection, I couldn’t explain it. Other worldly. That person was not my TF, but rather a soul catalyst who started me down this path. It took a couple of years to get over that.
Then I met someone else and I can’t begin to tell you the odd things that have happened to me. It’s like out of a movie. I don’t talk about it much, knowing most wont believe me.
Ive been “shown” I’m meant to be with this person at some point in my life, after karma is healed and Justice is done, but at this point, I’m starting to realize that this isn’t importantly to me and finally, learning to let go. I’ve had to go through a bunch of jacked up lessons, even defying the Universe itself. Like I said, it’s crazy. Lol.
People assume a TF relationship is an easy thing. It’s not. If it isn’t fraught with soul crushing difficulty, it’s probably a soulmate relationship (which is also good!). I wouldn’t wish this pain on my worst enemy, even though it’s meant for my highest good. It’s dramatic and chaotic and it changes who you are. You won’t recognize yourself or the other person when all is said and done. It’s that much of a game-changer.
Maybe one day, I can tell other people how this story ends, but at this moment, I’m happy to be single and finding myself. And I know the Universe loves and supports me as does my HS.