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lsroses last won the day on September 24 2018

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    Most genres.Whatever makes me feel good and suits my mood.
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    South East uk
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    Nice walks, the beach, Art and design, architecture, films, cooking, music
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    YSL - mon paris, Hugo - deep red
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  1. Personally, I'm generally very friendly. If you saw me on the school run, I'll stop and chat to people, maybe touch their arm, hold eye contact, all the things that most people would think is flirtatious. Truth is, I'm comfortable talking to women, I'll flirt if I think I can get away with it, and I will compliment them if they deserve it and it's not creepy. It doesn't mean I'm interested! In fact, if I do find someone attractive, I'm a nervous wreck. My heart races when I see them. I struggle to think of something good to say. I stumble over my words etc. Honestly, I'm an embarrassment half the time. And something I've noticed recently...I smile at them differently. I guess it's mixed with nerves and blushing, and possibly a large intake of breath. Wow....I'm painting a great picture here. But once I'm comfortable, I relax. It just takes some time to get past the awkward phase for me if I really like someone. Anyway, I'm no help whatsoever. Good luck figuring out if a married woman is interested!
  2. Have you had any more discussions with your husband? I hope everything works out for you. It's by no means easy. My story started out much the same. All I did was tell him I was attracted to women and he was the one that suggested I embrace it and become comfortable with who I was. He gave the go ahead for kissing, and asked for a threesome (of course, but no). Then he wanted to be involved and wasn't happy with me going it alone. But again I wasn't comfortable with that. But even an emotional connection was enough for his insecurities to spiral out of control. I had been honest with him every step of the way, and that was my problem. I was too honest, thinking he was ok with it, and then finding he really wasn't. At which point I was so wrapped up in her, I couldn't see the pain he was going through. He thought it was just about sex, and maybe I did too, to begin with, but it's not. It's so much more. I envy those that manage 2 relationships or more, because I really don't think I can, and I don't want to. No one should have to compete for affection and someone always suffers, at least from my experience. I do love him deeply and we've had a strong connection from the start, I just can't fight this pull that's leading me in another direction. I might regret giving up my forever with him but this isn't something I can switch off, and I can't see us working out if I never regain his trust. So true @CallistoDidNotWin Ideal, perfection etc, doesn't exist and only leads to disappointment. I'm generally a very, positive person. I'm surrounded by the love of great friends and family and I really do enjoy life right now. As for worrying about what it 'isn't', well who know's what that is. We tend to want what we can't have, and it's always more exciting when it's forbidden. Again, it's riddled with disappointment when expectations don't meet reality. So you're right, it's best not to worry, and live in the now! That quote is spot on.....all anyone wants is to be happy. Hopefully one day we can all happily sit and watch the world go by
  3. TBF, He's always been quite well groomed, but then in my was I at this point!! I don't mind hair on a man, as long as it's not his back or belly and it's trimmed and clean. I think it's masculine. He knew I wouldn't like him shaving his legs, which he also did in protest. But it didn't put me off sex and I didn't tell him it was gross or anything, it was just weird cos I wasn't used to it and the top half was still hairy! If anything I was just jealous cos he has better legs than me and they looked too good!
  4. @these-broken-wings(TBW) why did you delete the link!? It's beautiful, a strong message, and brought a tear to my eye. Everyone should watch it so please add it back in cos it's absolutely allowed! Yes words are powerful, and kindness goes a long way. There's no sense in letting bitterness and resentment destroy you, or you will simply stop living a full and happy life and be filled with anger. I suppose it can apply to many things....bullying, pushy parents, a religion telling you it's a sin to love someone of the same gender. It hurts and it can ruin you. But if you're lucky enough to meet someone that helps you accept yourself fully, then that is a beautiful and precious thing, even if the method used, or lesson learnt, isn't quite how we expected to figure it out.
  5. Well I greatly admire you for standing your ground, and please, by all means, carry on being you. I just think it would be more considerate to try and tone it down, for the sake of keeping this site a lighthearted, happy, and safe place to be, for everyone, old and new. I believe your delivery could be viewed as derogatory and insulting to those that still believe it. And providing a link with "bullshit" in the title, only makes that worse, to me anyway. If you're offended by that, it's up to you, I'm going to say it anyway It sounds like you've had a terrible experience of spirituality, and I'm sorry about that. I had a terrible experience of Christianity for the first 20 years of my life. Some even call it a cult. I walked away and I'm happier for it. It seems like every belief system has people that will manipulate it to suit themselves, resulting in frauds, fakes, cults, extremists etc. It's how many religions are born!! And I agree, it's awful. We just have to choose whether to believe them or walk away. In answer to the opening question....I think there are many potential great loves that enter our lives. I thought I'd found "the one" in my husband. I had no doubt whatsoever. I knew it when I married him and I still believe that. I just think that we meet certain people to serve a purpose, or help us grow. I'm not the same person I was 15 years ago. So maybe now I'm ready to meet another "one" Twin flames?......Maybe it's true, maybe it's been romanticised and people get their hopes up only to be disappointed when they don't meet. Or maybe you meet someone that you click with on every possible level and you simply search for an answer or title to such an electric, magical, connection, and TF fits perfectly. No one can be 100% certain on anything. Just hold onto perfection if it comes your way.
  6. This.....100%. The intensity of it can be too much sometimes, and very unexpected. You can't forget what it was like. It's one thing imagining it, but feeling it is something else....knowing how "right" it feels. Which is why I know I can't pursue anyone else while I'm married. It's just not fair on anyone, including myself. I know what I want, and that is a real, loving, relationship, with a woman, and if I end up being alone, then that's ok too. But I would rather end it while I'm sure of myself and my feelings towards him, and not while I'm influenced by my love for another. I think I'm lucky in a way, that the time is right, I'm not dependent on him in any way, financially or otherwise, and I have a good network of friends and family for support. As long as my daughter is protected in all this, we can make it work. Others are not as fortunate, and from my limited experience, this is a deciding factor on whether they're "ready". But when you love someone, you'll wait as long as it takes. I know some here have done that exact thing and it all worked out in the end, as it should. There are tough decisions to be made, especially if you're ready and you know what you want. If it's her, you'll find a way, and I truly believe you'll figure it out. It's not easy by any means.
  7. Haha! That is totally ok! I like your thinking
  8. @HerbanOrla Bi romantic is absolutely a real thing, and was the basis of my first female relationship. It was also the one that hurt the most, because it was pure emotion without the physical getting in the way. While it hurt, it also allowed me to become totally open and comfortable with my sexuality. Most of all it showed me that loving a woman is ok and feels good in every way. Yes it hurt at the time, but I was lucky to have maintained a degree of friendship with them, and I value that so much. You sound like you have things figured out and are very much living for the moment, which is just as it should be I'm not sure whether it's about falling harder. I think many married women enter a relationship because they think they've hit the jackpot and found the perfect solution. But then the initial NRE wears off and reality hits, guilt starts, fear sets in, and they feel they can't split themselves in two anymore. And of course they do the right thing and work on keeping their marriage together, maybe even realising that they loved their husband more than they ever realised. In which case, it doesn't really matter where I fall into it, because they're happy in the long run. Truth is, unless all parties are in agreement, including the husbands, I can't see how it can work, long term. And that is a huge ask for many partners. But you're absolutely right, and focusing on me is just what I need right now. This is so true. It's a journey that we're all navigating in our own way and we learn something new....lessons, I suppose, with everyone that crosses our path, good or bad. And you are absolutely enough! If someone doesn't see it, then it's their loss, and your gain, because there's something better waiting. @blueberry I love your thinking and I strongly believe in living in the now and not worrying about the future. If something feels right then go with it, because it probably is. No regrets. @TBD78 You're one of the lucky ones, and you know it, which is why you work hard to keep it that way. Do you mind me asking if there have ever been times that you just wanted her? Is that what you meant by the NRE stage? Is it just something that everyone needs to work through and some get scared and end it before finding that balance?
  9. We hear many people talk about their ideal situation, especially married women who don't have the freedom to have a relationship any other way. For married women, this usually means meeting another married woman, in the same situation, neither wanting to leave their families, both wanting a secondary relationship together while respecting each others primary relationships. It's heart warming, and encouraging to see this working for some, but for me, it ended in heartbreak, twice. I walked into this thinking it was simple and easy. Not realising how deeply and intensely I could fall for her. Both times, guilt took over and she had to make a choice, and of course, husband wins, and rightly so. I'm happy for them, of course, but it's not easy to accept. Did I feel a little used? Yes, probably, but that wouldn't be fair as it's far more complex than that, and I don't doubt that their feelings were genuine. I think we needed to learn something from the experience. For me, I learnt that I was totally comfortable being with a woman, more than I imagined I would be. But my marriage has suffered and I'm on the brink of separation, wondering how my ideal, perfect scenario ended up with me being alone. Personally, I never wanted a secondary partner. I thought I did, but it's not for me. I want a primary one, that I can give my all to, because I just don't know how to balance two relationships. I know I'm capable of loving two people. I still love my husband, and it's because I love him that I know he deserves someone who doesn't want to be shared, so he can feel safe and secure again. He certainly deserves a wife that isn't gay. So now I want to hear your stories.......What is your ideal scenario right now? Have you found it? Are you still searching for it? Did you find it only to find it changed completely once you had it?
  10. @bikiwi you're absolutely entitled to an opinion, and you clearly have a strong one on this subject. But please take care not to offend anyone. What works for one person may not work for another, and one persons "meaningless stuff" could hold all the answers that someone else is looking for, and change their life for the better. Belief is just that....not fact, but faith in something more, and if it makes someone happy, then who are we to tell them they're wrong.
  11. Haha!! You mean to tell me that we've subconsciously influenced the members of shys with our (ridiculously awesome ) banter!? That's good to know, and I hope it's working out for you.