Nidalaeh

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Nidalaeh last won the day on May 26

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About Nidalaeh

  • Rank
    Big Tease
  • Birthday 05/25/1980

Profile Information

  • Music
    Various, mainly Rock & Roll
  • Location
    Kentucky
  • Interests
    Reading, WoW, Cuddles
  • Signature Fragrance
    Sweet Pea, Lavendar
  • Favourite Book
    Harry Potter, Indalind Series
  • Favourite TV Show
    Rizzoli & Isles, NCIS (<3 Abby)
  • Favourite Film
    Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Aliens, The Day After Tomorrow

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  1. I'm doing okay, just still job hunting. About to lose Internet and Netflix, so that isn't going to be fun but it is life. Personally I'm fine, it's just the financial part that is killing me. I'll get through some how, just not sure how yet. 

    1. JadeBleu15

      JadeBleu15

      Your getting through because your a strong woman. Wishing I could help you somehow. Hugs and good prayers/vibes my friend 

  2. So I signed into HBO Go today, was watching "Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them". While searching what they have online, I found Fraggle Rock. I loved that show growing up, even had several of their books. So one guess what I'm going to be watching? :D

    1. JadeBleu15

      JadeBleu15

      Down in Fraggle Rock!!

      Love it!

  3. Hey Girl, just checking in on you. Hope your doing well.

  4. I'm doing better than what I was. I've been reading books some people have suggested and slowly getting back on my feet. I'm still job hunting, however, tomorrow I think I'll have to go to the gas station in town and try and get my old job back. I can't really make it on the money, but at least some will be coming in. It's at least better than none. I really wish I could make it at the job, because I actually like that job more than half the call center jobs I had, lol.

    1. NatashaYork

      NatashaYork

      Keeping everything crossed for you @Nidalaeh. Hope you get your life back in track Asap xx

    2. JadeBleu15

      JadeBleu15

      @Nidalaeh Praying and crossing everything for you as well.  <hugs>

  5. Just dropping this off my friend and also a hug. Hope your doing great. 

     

    1. Nidalaeh

      Nidalaeh

      Thanks friend :) How are you?

    2. JadeBleu15

      JadeBleu15

      @Nidalaeh I am ok. We are dealing with some hard news about a family member, but hanging in there. My thoughts are with you my friend and I feel everything will work out for you. Stay strong in mind and spirit. :)

    3. Nidalaeh

      Nidalaeh

      @JadeBleu15 I'm sorry to hear that. Happy thoughts being sent your way! 

  6. I hate job hunting

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    2. Girljusthavingfun

      Girljusthavingfun

      Do not give up!! Stick with it!! Get em girrrrl! :)

    3. NatashaYork

      NatashaYork

      Fingers crossed @Nidalaeh. Knock em dead x

    4. Nidalaeh
  7. Hey, how are you? I'm doing a little better, still hanging in there :)

    1. JadeBleu15

      JadeBleu15

      @Nidalaeh I am doing well. I am very glad to hear from you.  One day at a time my friend. *hugs*

    2. Nidalaeh

      Nidalaeh

      Yes, one day at a time

  8. Thanks everyone. I don't really know what to say except all your comments are helping.
  9. This post is going to be far different and more ugly than my last post. I let some friends of mine know how I'm struggling right now. These are online friends, I still haven't had the guts to let people who see in person how hard I'm struggling. How hard it is to keep going. A part of me wants to hide it from them. Another part doesn't want them to think I want attention. But mainly, I don't want them to worry about me, they have enough to worry about and me not adding more stress for them. Today I got hit hard again. Right now I should be freaking out, but it's like I don't give a fuck what happens. I want to give up, to lie down and stop trying. I want to just end it all. However, I can't do it. I can't leave my sister who just had her baby. The thought of hurting her kills me. The thought of hurting my mom, my other sister and my niece is unbearable. Plus I was raised as a Christian, so the thought of going to Hell, makes me afraid. I'm trying to pull myself up from this hole I've put myself in. It's hard, very hard. I signed up on a depression forum. I still haven't posted anything on there. Maybe this blog post is just me trying to reach out. Maybe I'm not actually as much done as I think I am. I'm scared at the fact that I'm not freaking out right now like I should be. I'm scared of this emptiness that is inside of me. I'm just scared...
  10. A friend sent me this earlier. He knows I'm struggling with things. He said "Sometimes we just need some words of motivation". 

     

    1. NatashaYork

      NatashaYork

      Feel your struggles @Nidalaeh. Me too...in therapy and not the shopping variety. Thank you for sharing that xx

  11. And... the hits keep coming

    1. JadeBleu15

      JadeBleu15

      @Nidalaeh I got a bat, want me to hit some out of the park for you? *hugs* 

    2. Nidalaeh

      Nidalaeh

      Please do!!

  12. Time to head to bed, have to be up in 4.5 hours. I'm determined to make this week better than last week. It's already starting out that way, so just need to let it continue :)

    1. JadeBleu15

      JadeBleu15

      @Nidalaeh You will Rock this week! Stay Amazing Girl!

  13. I really should go to bed since I have to get up in 4.5 hours and work 10 hours, but I really wanted to post this. Mainly so I can go back to this in the future if I need to. My mom just got back from FL and on the drive from my sisters house to home, we was talking. In FL I have a cousin who has came out as being Gay. His family there is having a hard time with it. They also have a hard time because he likes to dress up in women's clothing all the time. In fact, his mother made him burn all of his "girlie" things. Mom was talking about how she accepts him for who he is and she wished his Mom would do the same. We feel that maybe if they did that, then he wouldn't have such a hard time with it and turning to drugs and alcohol. Well it came up how at one time Mom thought my sister would tell her she was a lesbian, because my sister was always at her friends house, who is bi-sexual. (Little does Mom know that my sister did have a relationship with a girl, which I just recently found out). So I had to ask her what would she have done if my sister told her that she liked women. I'm holding my breathe this whole time, and then she said "I would still love her and want to spend time with her. I would never disown my children". She also went on to say that she has a real hard time believing it's wrong for gays/lesbians because she feels they deserved to be loved as well. I didn't tell her I liked women, but at least now I know she won't disown me. And she would accept whoever I was with as part of the family. Such a relief off my shoulders.
  14. I agree, but sadly I'm allergic to grass. Still doesn't stop me from opening the window/door to smell it.
  15. I love Rain, especially listening to it fall on a tin roof. I really want a place with a porch so I can just sit outside and listen to it when it rains. My patio doesn't have a roof, so it sucks.