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Delia

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Delia last won the day on March 17

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About Delia

  • Rank
    Getting Flirty
  • Birthday March 31

Profile Information

  • Music
    Love Wide Variety...old school r&b & hip/hop, dance music, sultry blues, alternative
  • Location
    Western NY
  • Interests
    Traveling, cooking, essential oils, reading, music, children, laughing, holistic health, human connection/“real”people, nature, sexual attraction, serendipity, art
  • Signature Fragrance
    “Balance” & “Motivate” L’eau Issey; Marc Jacobs
  • Favourite Book
    “Man’s Search for Meaning” books by Jhumpa Lahiri
  • Favourite TV Show
    Scandal, Billions, GOT, Bloodliine, The Affair, Pretty Liars
  • Favourite Film
    Lots ... love movies that make me think, laugh or feel good; & lesbian porn Ha!

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  1. Delia

    Today's Mantra

    @these-broken-wings(TBW) I will sound like some obsessive lunatic if I keep saying that nearly every word u write melts into my mouth like chocolate when I need it most or a splash of cold water cupping my face that refreshes me. Ha! (I suck at analogies ;) Yours with drugs speaks to me on a whole different level & I’ll leave that alone for now ;) but the pain, the rabbit hole, the madness...seeing things this way & that depending on where u are.... YES!!! I feel like I’m in an Actual House of Mirrors rn. Or maybe it’s a House of Horrors -lololol. Some days it feels that way. Some days I’m more than ok living inside this body on this planet in all this structured chaos. Of late I find I’m longing for someone who died...took his life actually (just 2 yrs ago) and in so doing- took a dark piece of me with him. He saw this side of me before I did. He mirrored this darkness you speak of that you are not afraid of anymore. (I envy u for I simultaneously crave for it to swallow me up & pretend it doesn’t exist turning my back).I wish I could surrender to it, but I fear at this moment it would swallow me up. ....
  2. Delia

    Today's Mantra

    I can relate to what you are saying here on many levels. You have brought me back in time ...I’ve used obsessions with people (mostly men; tho one woman ) as cozy escapes... painful tho they were as I tortured myself with what I could not fully have-I came Alive soaking up the drops that touched my skin, scribbling down the words whispered to savor them when feeling insecure. (Which was far more often than anyone would ever have believed)... I purposely mixed what was real with my longings & imaginings...could I even tell the difference anymore? I thought that death came when I woke up to the light of day ... & I’d scurry to find a new place to lose myself again...but as I repeated this pattern again and again and again over the years (to escape pain or engage my ever craving mind, & soul)... But no. These were All awakenings weren’t they?... part of my “becoming”... Integrating the disowned, cast-aside parts of myself that someone told me were broken long ago. These obsessions allowed me to remember myself. I think that was it. Remember what I had discarded. To see it was all beautiful-esp. the broken places, & battered spots. And they spoke to me in ways that made me believe in recapturing those lost bits. So I try to keep candles lit now... I’m hoping to find what feels like “authenticity,” so I no longer feel at home in the dark. ;)
  3. Delia

    Today's Mantra

    @these-broken-wings(TBW) ... Yessss... this is everything right here. Validation is my jam. Lmao. But I mean it. Feeling unseen, unheard, plain ignored, misunderstood, discounted... it leaves me feeling simultaneously empty/invisible & full of rage, & the deepest hurt. I seek for myself to lengthen the space between stimulus & response (always a work in progress) ... & as u do- validate myself. “Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.” Victor Frankl
  4. Delia

    Today's Mantra

    @sweetthing27 Love ur Mantra for the day. Perfect. I needed these words today. To the “crisis” & it leading to growth in any gender... it was once described to me as the Chinese Characters (Danger + Opportunity)... I am not fluent in Chinese so I didn’t vet this-lol, but I liked the concept. There are times in life, when - if we can make it to the other side... well- one of my favorite quotes : “Since my house burned down, I have a better view of the rising moon.”
  5. @Sithandra “To see and feel one's beloved naked for the first time is one of life's pure, irreducible epiphanies. If there is a true religion in the universe, it must include that truth of contact or be forever hollow. To make love to the one true person who deserves that love is one of the few absolute rewards of being a human being, balancing all of the pain, loss, awkwardness, loneliness, idiocy, compromise, and clumsiness that go with the human condition. To make love to the right person makes up for a lot of mistakes.” ;)
  6. @Sithandra Awee-(insert blushing emoji-lol)...it was yours that inspired me ;)
  7. @Sithandra Wow. Intense. I first started to read ur reply & thought “damn, I could have written this... it’s just how I feel...” But I likely wouldn’t have been brave enough to admit I want all of someone off the bat. :/ The truth is tho-that IS my intensity... my curiosity, my desire to know the most intimate parts of someone most don’t bother with or aren’t allowed to see. The dark, broken or special places... quirky, one-of-a-kind tender spaces... backstories, journeys ... all of the dreams & messes... Yep.
  8. Delia

    Why Did U Choose The Current Screen Name?

    After reading everyone’s posts... mine is really lame & boring. Delia is the name of my imaginary friend from when I was 4yrs old. :0
  9. @brokengirl0407 wow! That’s an Awesome story. Sexy hot & super bold/confident of you to ask her up. I imagine u must have been getting some type of vibe. What a great ending!
  10. @Tuesday472 wow. You’ve addressed this topic so well and given me quite a bit to think about . As old as I am-lol-and as much as I conceptually of course knew that people do consent to open marriages , I have never considered the term polyamorous, and definitely not in the statistical sense ... 1/2 of all ‘polys are bi!’ :0 I crave a lot of sex and a lot of intimacy. I have been in a marriage for 22 years. My husband would not be open to anyone else being a part in any way. So I guess if i proceed I don’t get to label myself poly but rather a cheating slut. :( Boo And while I have slightly opened the door to the idea of being attracted to women (had my first & only kiss 12 yrs ago)... I have largely repressed this side of myself due to the way I was raised religiously and culturally... even tho it flew in the face of my personal views/logic. Anyway... I’m largely off topic (sorry) but am just waking up to the possibility that I mIght actually Be Bi-sexual as opposed to someone who just likes to masterbate to taboo thoughts of eating a woman’s pussy. Lmao I am still attracted to men, and still love my husband but find that this lust I have for women is off the charts recently. Not really sure what to do with any of this but So appreciate this site & the ladies on it ;)
  11. Delia

    I'd like to introduce myself..

    @Emmi210 Welcome back! I’m new here but so glad I found this forum. Just like u I still love men but boy does the idea of being with a woman make make me so hot.
  12. So excited to have found this forum to explore... :) Don’t know what I’m doing or what will become of this but feeling so alive. :) 

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