So, I've got this massive crush on one of my female work colleagues and it's driving me a bit around the bend as I am shit at decoding where she's at or even if she's interested. I have no idea what her orientation is. It's never been discussed. We've been working at the same place for about three years but it's only the last year and a half that we've been working together and only the last six months very closely due to what we work with. I've been bi-curious for a long time and I am not very experienced in this at all, as I've mainly dated men.
And up until very recently I've never thought og this woman in any other way as a colleague and I noticed she always said hello to me as she was nearby, even if I didn't see her. Then about a month ago she asked me to helper with the new printer set up and we did that over her phone, and as if in a movie our fingers touched and it was like lightening. I know is sounds awfully cliche but it was just something about that touch. Afterwards, all I could think of was that touch and the crush just grew I guess. And it's still growing.
Since then I've spent more time with her as requirements of our jobs and it's become treasured time. Then this week we've been spending even more time together due to work and it's just her and me in her office. There I am sitting there smiling like an idiot, with a schoolgirl kinda crush, even though the topic is quite serious. I have to keep myself from just smiling from looking at her. And what I am curious about is if she's in any way interested in me like I am interested in her? I know I am usually quite closed off and I have a big fat armour on, not letting anyone get to close. But with her I've been lowering it a bit and seing if she gives me anything. But I am very bad at signals reading, even with guys I am terrible. But I have learned that she's a bit like me with the armour, she's told me that much. And when she's around where I work she usually checks to see if I'm there, even if she doesn't say anything. But most times she stops by to chat.
However, last night we were working late on a case together and when we left I told her I had a date, with another colleague of ours, a woman. I said it in a jokeing manner as this other colleague is married and very straight (which she knows) and we were just going out to catch dinner and a show. And then I snapped her a photograph of us leg flirting with a silly "it's such a nice date" line, which was of course just bs as my friend and I were being silly about it, but I didn't tell my crush this. We do send each other a lot of snaps and she is usually very quick to reply, however this she didn't comment on. (She also usually comments on other things that I get up to). And today as we had another meeting scheduled she didn't ask about it at all. When we're in her office and talking I usually sit at the side and she often asks me to come around to sit next to her and every now and then our feet will touch and she's not pulling away. She seems comfortable with the touch. She even asked me to stop by her office before I left for the day, which I did. Then there's this thing that might be a tell, I don't know. We usually park in the same place but the other day she parked at another lot and today I parked there and she parked where I previously parked, thus missing each other. When she found out she said "Are you serious? Why would you do that?" Which I'd like to interpret as a sign as we've missed each other two times, but then I could be reading too much into it. We're getting quite giggly and we both joke a lot and I feel like we're on the same wavelength but I am really bad at sniffing her intentions out. And since we work together this could potentially be bad. So, should I just leave it with that I have a crush on her? Or should I try and find out what she feels?