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mia1 last won the day on July 10 2016

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  1. Thank you for explaining that to me and I think it might actually be the case. I just simply don’t have any other explanation for that behaviour. I’ve been active on Twitter, but it feels weird, like I’m being watched. I don’t feel about her the way I did before, but I loved her very much and I think I always will in a way. Thank you again for taking the time to explain limerence to me TBW. It’s helped me understand what’s happening with her a bit better.
  2. Pardon my ignorance, but I’m not familiar with that concept. I just googled it and read a couple of things about it. By saying that she’s probably limerent for me, do you mean that I could be obsessed with her or vice versa? Either way, I can tell you that I’m not obsessed with her. I haven’t thought about her in a long time until I saw her name on my Twitter. I also don’t think it applies to her. After all, I’m the one who confessed my feelings for her and she decided not to get into an affair with me. Maybe I’m not really understanding what you mean?
  3. And this is why I come here for advice. You are all right. I don’t think it is that she got into my head again, I guess I’ Just too nice and didn’t want to be rude. I’ve been refraining from liking or tweeting anything today because I didn’t know what to do, but now I do. I’ll just keep being my normal self and ignore she’s even there. Thank you all for your great advice!
  4. Wow I can’t believe it’s been so long! First, I just want to say I’m sorry for not replying before , just know Lizzie that you did not make me feel stupid, I totally did that to myself. Your advice was amazing and greatly appreciated. And regarding your question brokengirl, no, she never texted again, BUT surprised me a few hours ago by following me on Twitter. There’s a big difference this time. I don’t feel like this messes with my head like it did before, but it does actually upset me. As I mentioned a couple of years ago, I blocked her on Instagram and unfriended her on Facebook as soon as I learned she got married. I know she took her husband’s last name and the first thing I noticed on Twitter was that she’s back to her maiden name. I even checked on Facebook. It’s been years and she’s still trying to get attention the same way she did before. I mean, if she wants to talk she could just text hi or something. Out of the blue following me on Twitter seems weird after I made it clear I was done with the mind games. It feels like she’s chasing me all over social media! I don’t really know how to respond to this. Do I follow back? Do I ignore it? I don’t want to be rude and although I don’t feel so strongly about her anymore, she was very important to me. Thoughts?
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    Ticket to Ride Europe, Munchkin and Carcassonne are my favourites
  6. Thank you for your replies! Beaulieu, the bullying happened from the beginning to the end of the school year. That lady hated me with a passion. I eventually grew a thicker skin and was able to resemble my old self. My sense of humour came back and would even had discussions with the teachers when I didn't agree with something, but there was something missing, something that terrible teacher stole from me and was never able to get it back. I went through high school being an academically average student, when I think it should've been different. Same in university. It's like something's always holding me back. A little voice in my head always tells me there's nothing particularly special about my skills or talents, leaving many projects collecting dust even though family, friends and people in general tell me otherwise. I've always known the bullying affected me for life. I don't think about it obsessively, I mean it's been 31 years, but I resent that woman because I can perfectly identify how she impacted my life. Many times I've thought about how much I'd like to tell her what a failure she is, how sad it is that after all those years she's remembered not as an inspiration, but the total opposite, and now I have that chance. I don't want to give her more power, I want to show her that, despite the suffering she caused me, I was able to rescue the kid she wanted to get lost, with some missing pieces, but essentially the same. She may not give a dang about what I have to say, but I think if I get this off my chest I will find closure. Kairi, about your kid, try to find some counselling, these teachers can really change the way you affront different situations later on and it's better to address it asap.
  7. So, obviously, this is not about love or anything nice, but this is the only forum I'm familiar with and I know you all give amazing advice, so here I am. I'm 41. I've been doing a bit of soul searching and I've come to the conclusion that many of the things that ended up happening or not happening in my life were caused by me being bullied when I was 10 by my 4th grade teacher. I've always been aware that my IQ is above average. I was a brilliant kid and my dad even had an IQ test done to prove it. I was a funny, kind and sensitive kid and my classmates loved my jokes. One day, I had to recite a poem in front of the whole class, and I did in a fun way. When I was done, the teacher said they were laughing at me, not because it was funny, but because I was ridiculous. That really screwed me up. I didn't say anything at home and ended up spending my recesses alone. Keeping friends and making new ones became extremely difficult, studying wasn't important or exciting anymore and after being a straight A+ student, I started failing. It was like that in middle school and high school, never the good student I used to be. I only wanted to learn on my own, reading books about philosophy, astronomy, biology; Leon Tolstoy, Alexandre Dumas and Jules Verne novels. It got better over the years when it came to making friends and I've had a fairly normal social life, but I've also suffered from depression, the 5 years after the bullying being the worst because it was the 80's and my parents didn't know what the heck to do, so I was properly treated when I was 15. Anyway, when I think about all this my heart breaks for 10 year old me, sometimes it even brings me to tears after 31 years, meaning I haven't found closure. I found the teacher on Facebook and I wonder if I should message her and say something about it. Part of me wants to tell her what a horrible teacher she was and the bad impact she had in my life; part of me thinks I should just let it go somehow. Can anybody give me some advice?
  8. Four years ago I told her I had feelings for her, her response was that she didn't know what to say. We got together a couple of months after and ,although 2 or 3 times she looked at me deeply in the eyes and looked at my lips in a way that made me feel she wanted to kiss me, I'm sure that day she decided she would not get into an affair with me, mostly because I'm married. I tried no contact, but she would still text me on special occasions, like bdays or Holidays. Every time she texted I tried to be friendly, but her responses would be almost monosyllabic. She got a new boyfriend just a few months after I confessed my feelings and tired of her posts on Facebook, but not wanting to be too radical and unfriend her, I deactivated my account for almost two years. During that time she texted on Christmas and somehow found me on Instagram before they started making follow suggestions and followed me. Then, I found out in September that she got married. That was exactly what I was waiting for, so I could feel free to block her on Instagram and reactivate my Facebook and unfriend her. I did it and everything was fine. I thought she would get the message and leave me be, but I was wrong. She texted on Christmas. Just a simple Merry Christmas (my name), but the point is she texted early in the morning on Christmas day. I replied with a simple Hi ___! Merry Christmas to you too! and have tried not to make a big deal out of it because it probably doesn't mean anything, but I was fine and she's invading my thoughts again and it's driving me nuts! I have someone else, yet I've been thinking about texting her on New Years, that's how much she messes with my head, but she doesn't know it. All I can think right now is that she just got married and has never been able to completely let me go, messing with my heart and my head in the process. I guess I just needed to vent and I'd appreciate your opinions and encouragement so I don't give in and text her.
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