lostgirl78

Platinum Shy-Bi Girl
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lostgirl78 last won the day on January 20 2015

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About lostgirl78

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    Lost and confused
  • Birthday July 8

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    Rock
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    USA
  • Favourite Book
    A song of ice and fire series
  • Favourite TV Show
    Game of thrones
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    Lord of the rings trilogy

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  1. That really stinks. I love this site. And it was always my go to to talk about struggles with friends that understand. But it was also my safe zone. Now without things being private to members only, I do t feel composting anything. That sucks about the blogs as well. Most everyone I knew on here isn’t on here any longer. So I’d like to post for anyone in here to see, without it being public. Guess im just out of luck. ☹️
  2. Didn’t there used to be some areas that were private? Why did that change?
  3. I used to think that too. Until I gained some weight and got boobs. Now I play with mine non stop and am even more obsessed with them. Wishing I had a gf to play with mine and let me play with hers.
  4. Hey! I’m an oldie, been gone a while. I just can’t remember which posts are private and can’t be viewed by non members? There are things I want to post about but want to make sure no one outside of this place reads them. Also, I don’t remember the rules of posting pics and where they are private as well. I know profile pics are public. Thanks!
  5. Miss having my gal pals from here to exchange racy pics with. Could use a good ego boost lately. ☹️

  6. Wow, looks like my post got totally taken over and turned into a feminist “all men are evil, and we must rise against” post. I’m sure looking at all of the comments here, that I’m not going to be the most popular person her on Shy’s after I say this. But I really don’t care. I don’t hate feminism, I’m all about women getting equal pay and opportunities. I’m 100% for gender equality. But there have been a lot of things stated on this post that I do not agree with. I think that when you go into a marriage expecting monogamy, it’s unfair to “demand” for your partner to be okay with you going outside of your marriage for sexual or emotional intimacy. Anyone would be blindsided by that conversation. If you enter a marriage, heterosexual or homosexual, and you think your partner is straight or gay, and then years later, find out that they are actually bisexual and want to be with someone other than yourself, of course you aren’t going to be okay with that. It’s not what you agreed on when entering the marriage. I would be surprised and insecure if my husband told me that he was bisexual and wanted to explore that part of himself. So I don’t blame him for not being okay with my sexuality that was unknown to him when we got married. As far as saying that gay relationships are more flexible, that isn’t necessarily true either. I know a lot of gay and lesbian couples who are very monotonous. I also know several who have gotten divorced due to infidelity. Just like I know many heterosexual couples that are in open marriages and are perfectly happy. I don’t think that it’s fair to say that one is more flexible than the other. That’s just a very general statement that’s really untrue.
  7. He hasn’t outright given me an ultimatum, it’s just understood that he considers it cheating. And if I did cheat again, and he found out about it, he will leave. But we haven’t even discussed my sexuality in over a year. It’s like if it’s not talked about he thinks I will forget about it. If I stood up to him and said, hey, I really want to have a sexual relationship with a woman, I know he’d say that’s it. He’d ask for a divorce. He’s not okay with sharing me with anyone. He’s not okay with me having any intimacy with anyone but him. Even if it’s only emotional.
  8. I wish I had never had any of those conversations. I wish I had admitted it to myself without talking to him at the same time. I literally didn’t admit to myself that I was actually bisexual until he flat out asked me if I was a lesbian. It took me by surprise. Here I was thinking “it would be really hot to have a threesome with him.” Thinking to myself that “it’s every guys fantasy right? I’m a good wife letting my husband have that. And how hot it would be to share that with him.” But when he asked me that, I thought to myself, What? A lesbian? And it was like my whole life flashed before me like a movie screen. It went all the way back to my very first girl crush, when I was 7 years old. Me always wanting to be as close as possible to my attractive female friends. Me dreaming about and fantasizing about kissing them. Lusting over their figures. And that’s when it hit me, clear as day. No, I’m not a lesbian, but I am absolutely bi. I guess I should have known he would have reacted the way he did. He was always jealous and insecure. Since we were kids.
  9. The other thing is, even though I’ve always been bisexual, I haven’t always admitted it to myself. When I started to realize my desires for being with a woman were getting very intense, I would talk to him about it. Like four play. Mentioning how fun and sexy it would be to have a threesome. At first he was all over it. Agreeing with me. Then when he realized how much I really wanted it, he started to get worried and straight out asked if I was a lesbian. That is when I admitted to myself, and him, that I am bisexual. It never occurred to me to keep those feelings and thought to myself. I guess hindsight is 20/20.
  10. This. Sometimes I wish I never would have told him about my sexuality at all. Then I could have a female fwb and he wouldn’t be any the wiser. But because he does know, and because he knows I’ve cheated before, I can’t even have a perfectly platonic girls night out with a straight friend without him being suspicious and jealous. What am I talking about? I just can’t have one. Period. He gets mad if I go to work events. Or Skype with my lifetime best friend who lives far away. Much less want to go out with some friends.
  11. I think that’s exactly it. I just don’t know exactly what that is yet.
  12. Thank you. It’s been a struggle. When I first came out to myself, I did to him as well. He wasn’t okay because he thought I wanted to leave him for a woman. He was afraid I was a lesbian, not bi. I tried to reassure him. I even said I wanted my first experience with a woman to be with him. As a threesome. (I know most women on here are very against that) He would go back and forth. One day saying he’s up for it, then the next being very insecure. It created a huge wedge between us. I felt I couldn’t talk to him. After that he became very distant and upsupportive in every aspect of my life. I became depressed and that’s eventually what caused me to cheat. The need for affection. Since then he has been very untrusting and insecure about every single friend I make. Even new work relationships. So needless to say, we don’t talk about it. AT ALL!
  13. Holy friggin hot!!!! Damn, I need a cold shower after reading that!
  14. Glad you’re on here! Now get to posting so you can start to have more access to things and PM!!
  15. Thank you all for your responses. I’m not asking if I should leave my husband or not. I know that that’s a question only I can answer. I guess I’m asking how anyone can manage being in a maogomous relationship when you have these desires to be with both sexes?