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Hello all :lol:

I'm new to the site. I've been in relationships with guys for years but haven't been able to fall for one since I was 18 (turning 25 in a few weeks), I was beginning to think I was mentally broken being that in just can't seem to connect with anyone. Despite this I nearly settled for a dull relationship, thinking that the gooey feelings would eventually happen (#spoilers it didn't). After it ended I got asked out by several guys, I wound up getting with a guy whom I'd been friends with for years and had a crush on in college, still the gooey feels aren't happening and I feel somewhat a knob for going out with him. 

A couple of months ago I became familiar with a woman (very cute btw) :wub:who was a regular at my place of work. She's a mutual friend of my colleague and expressed a romantic interest in me. I totally chickened out and failed to get her number when my colleague offered it but haven't been able to stop thinking about her since. I've had a growing attraction toward women over the last 2 years but having been in relationships over most of that time I'd been pretty close minded about trying to see if a female connection would be better for me.

Now I've moved to another area, some 250 miles away, the guy I'm dating doesn't know what he wants and I see this going nowhere, I feel more attracted to women than ever and have no idea how to deal with it.

Anyone here had a similar situation or advice on how to sort out this mess I have made my life??

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Welcome to the site!  If you haven't yet, be sure to check out How Our Forum Works to see the site rules and other helpful posts.  This is a wonderful place for support and sorting out your feelings.

I would surmise from your poor connection with men and growing interest in women that perhaps you might benefit from focusing on dating women for awhile and seeing how that goes.  I know that for me, men were always easy to land if I wanted to.  Women felt like high stakes, so I dated men almost exclusively for years, though women were more appealing for me.  I made a conscious decision to only date women many years ago, and while I struggled for awhile, I think it was the right thing for me.  I ended up opening back up to men out of frustration after a couple of years, and ended up in an awful marriage to a man, which ended almost 3 years ago.  Since then, it's women only for me.  I am in my second relationship since then, and I've found that dating women just FITS.  While my first relationship ended, I felt a stronger connection with her than with men, and the dynamic felt like what I'd wanted forever.  My current relationship is wonderful so far, and I'm trying not to dive in too deep too fast!  I am so glad that I am dating women only at this point, even with its frustrations and struggles.  It's so much more fulfilling and just feels right.

I would encourage you to focus your energies on women for awhile, just to answer those questions in your head and try it on for a fit.

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Thanks so much for sharing your experience and advice @BiTriMama,I'm glad it's working well for you at this point, think I'm going to take a little breather first and then see if I can click with a lady in the future.

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A slight update, last week there was a convention near where I used to live so I took a week off work to visit. After the weekend of activities was over I had a couple of days left before I had to go back to work and went out for drinks with that old workmate of mine. What he didn't tell me until I was there fully decked in a my little pony hoodie and chillin' after half a dozen glasses of whiskey that he had also invited my crush to meet us there later that night. 

She turned up and we hit it off straight away, we visited some cocktail bars and I finally got her number, ending the night with the sweetest kiss. Next day we have a date in the afternoon this time sober. . .  I felt like I might melt in her arms forever. 

Unfortunately the next day I have to head home to be ready for work, she's the first person I get a message from when I wake and the voice that calls me before sleep takes over. I'm walking on sunshine, something no one has done to me for years and it feels amazing!

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Wah that's awesome! Doing a happy dance for you. Also hooray for MLP and whiskey, nice accoutrements to a great night. Your workmate is a quality wingman. :)

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Love it!  Can't wait for more updates!!

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Glad things are working out well for you. Please keep is updated.

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Updates. . .sort of. So we've been dating since October, it's still long distance and I go to her every chance I get, unfortunately those chances aren't as often as I would like. (Only once a month and it's driving me crazy)

When I'm with her we're on fire, I can picture sharing every part of my life with her and she says the same for me. And then when we aren't together communication drops and it's like she's a ghost.

I really want this to progress to at least more regular visits and better phone communication, it's been such a long time since I've cared about someone like this. I just hope it's only because she's busy with work and time will bring us closer . . . . . . . .

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