karmaintention

I think I might be...

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I'm married (16 years) and have always identified as straight but I'm starting to come to grips with a few things that have always been deeply tucked away in my mind. I've always fantasized while masturbating about women's breasts. Makes me cum pretty much every time. Love sex with my husband and I know I'm attracted to men but I'm opening up to my sexual attraction to boobs. It's undeniable. I'm not really attracted to other parts but I think breasts are like the gateway for me? I've started watching female masturbation porn and it really gets me wet, total surprise to me! Does this make me bi-curious or what????

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Yes it does, and you've cum to the right site for support! ;) welcome to ShyBi.

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Welcome to the site!  If you haven’t already, be sure to check out How Our Forum Works to see the site rules and other helpful posts.

Well, who can blame you- boobs are awesome! :D But seriously, I think it maybe makes you bicurious, at the very least, that you think about boobs as much as you do.  But that doesn’t necessarily mean you want to do anything about it.  Same goes for your choices in porn.  What we might get off on watching in porn may not always align with what we actually want to be doing IRL.  Plus, the porn you’re watching is focused on a woman's pleasure, versus a man’s, and sometimes, that’s a relief, and you can enjoy a woman’s pleasure.  So much porn is male pleasure-centered that a change from that can be nice- and relatable.  Whether or not you’ll want to actually fool around with a woman is something only you can know.  What about a threesome or a free pass from your husband?  A night at a swinger’s club?

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Whether or not you’ll want to actually fool around with a woman is something only you can know.  What about a threesome or a free pass from your husband?

It's complicated for me...I fantasize about being on top of a woman while getting fucked by a guy from behind. So I guess that answers the question of wanting to fool around with a woman but I want a guy to be there too? So turned on by the image of a FFM threesome. As far as asking my husband for a free pass or threesome, something is keeping me from having that conversation with him. I guess I'm still not sure if it's real or what??? Kinda confused still.

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You've established what you want - FFM. That's a good start. I think no straight hardcore would want FFM or fantasise anything to do with women. So you're bicurious in my book. Welcome to shybi! 

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I say explore and find out! Wrt porn: I can watch gay male porn and get turned on... I won't read too much into what kind of visual images get you aroused...

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20 hours ago, karmaintention said:

Whether or not you’ll want to actually fool around with a woman is something only you can know.  What about a threesome or a free pass from your husband?

It's complicated for me...I fantasize about being on top of a woman while getting fucked by a guy from behind. So I guess that answers the question of wanting to fool around with a woman but I want a guy to be there too? So turned on by the image of a FFM threesome. As far as asking my husband for a free pass or threesome, something is keeping me from having that conversation with him. I guess I'm still not sure if it's real or what??? Kinda confused still.

Isn’t it always complicated? :) I used to fantasize about that a lot, too.  Usually about going down on a woman while a guy was doing me from behind.  Now the guy isn’t in the picture, but I digress.

You two could potentially explore this together as a couple!  It’s certainly possible!  It’s a scary conversation to bring up, but it’s worth it.

13 hours ago, treelover123 said:

I say explore and find out! Wrt porn: I can watch gay male porn and get turned on... I won't read too much into what kind of visual images get you aroused...

Exactly.  This was what I always trying to get across, too.

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thanks so much. This helps a lot. As you can tell I'm still not totally comfortable admitting to myself that I'm bisexual or bi-curious. I think I've justified it so far by telling myself I just have a boob fetish and that's worked well but obviously now these feelings are coming to the surface now and I'm opening up more. Hubby knows I like boobs and have fantasies about women but does that mean I've come out to him? Do I have to say the words "I'm bisexual"???  

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7 minutes ago, karmaintention said:

thanks so much. This helps a lot. As you can tell I'm still not totally comfortable admitting to myself that I'm bisexual or bi-curious. I think I've justified it so far by telling myself I just have a boob fetish and that's worked well but obviously now these feelings are coming to the surface now and I'm opening up more. Hubby knows I like boobs and have fantasies about women but does that mean I've come out to him? Do I have to say the words "I'm bisexual"???  

I wouldn’t necessarily say you need to come out to him, but you might tell him you’re curious and would like to explore this together.  Most guys have that fantasy, though when it comes to their wives, it’s a different story!  The only way to know is to ask.  How does he act about the stuff he already knows?

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I'd say he's super excited about it! It feels like he would be supportive but I have struggled with it internally...i.e. am I really attracted to women or just boobs...

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32 minutes ago, karmaintention said:

I'd say he's super excited about it! It feels like he would be supportive but I have struggled with it internally...i.e. am I really attracted to women or just boobs...

Only one way to know for sure! ;)

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14 hours ago, karmaintention said:

I think I've justified it so far by telling myself I just have a boob fetish and that's worked well

Boob fetish? Of course, boobs are attached to people so for you to get your hands on some, you'll have to deal with at least one whole person of female persuasion :rolleyes:

It's not uncommon to split reality into bits when one experiences lots of anxiety. Hang around here on Shy's, read a bit, write more, converse and figure stuff out. It certainly helped me on my journey. 

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I love breasts. I think I have a breast fetish. I love watching anything with females kissing, sucking and handling breasts. I want to play with another woman's breasts and have her play with mine as well.

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